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Jul 16, 2008 - 12 comments

For anyone that is new to this battle let me share some things I have learned and offer you some support. Let me start by saying welcome and good for you!! There are so many new people here its great. Actually it goes both ways if you think about it. It’s a shame that anyone has a problem with addiction but its great that we all came across this site. This forum has truly been a life saver to many, myself included. When I came here in December of 2007 I was just a few weeks clean. I was lonely and depressed. When I found this forum I thought I would drop in and ask a few questions and maybe even get a little help. I never thought that I would still be here over 7 months later, still clean and even helping others. I have gotten some of the greatest help and support here and even along the way made some truly great friends. Some I hope for life. You kinda come full circle here. What I meen by that come here down and out and asking for help then before you know it you are the one offering the help and support. To me I kinda feel like its my pay back to this community for everything that was given to me. Still when something happens or I am craving or just having a bad day I come on here and post. Its nice to vent to others that know exactly how your feeling and what you are going threw. You don’t feel like you are being judged and by no meens do you feel like you have to explain yourself. Everyone here has been where you are, no matter what point in this journey you are. That’s another good point I want to make. Post Post Post!!! You will not believe how much it really helps to get it out and not keep all your feeling and emotions all bottled up! You have to truly want to get clean in order to stay clean. It is one of the hardest things you will ever do but in the end it is so worth it. You will see!! Yes you will feel like **** for a while, about a week, but it really does improve everyday. Kinda like a bad flu. Just try to keep yourself busy. Watch a funny movie, read a good book or take a walk. I remember someone telling me to take a walk and I was like ..yeh right! That’s the last thing I wanted to do but I tried it. AT least right now its warm out when I was going threw WD’s it was December and so cold..i hate the cold. I got all bundled up, I actually resembled the little kid Randy from The Christmas Story, and took that walk. I will tell you what, when I got back home I did feel a little better and it also kept my mind off of how crappy I was feeling. You will eventually find what works best for you and when you do stick with it.
Just always keep in mind that we didn’t do this to ourselves over night so its not going to be overnight that we fix ourselves either. It’s a journey. It’s a journey that is so worth it in the end. To wake up each day and have your life back and feeling good about yourself and what you have done. There is no greater feeling! We all have those off days here and there where you feel down and yucky but the way I look at it is that everyone, even those who are not addicts, have off days. Its just another reminder that we are returning back to a normal way of life.
I wish everyone here, newbies and those that have been here for a while the best of luck. I am so happy that I have all of you.

Hugs to you all,

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by joann1975, Jul 16, 2008
Great post Jen! I feel the same way. (well i never felt like randy in a christmas story b/c it wasn't cold out lol) I am so happy to have everyone here too!

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by NautyOne, Jul 16, 2008
Very nice post.  We even have to consider all the lurkers out there that our words help too.  This is an awesome place.  Through all the bs & drama and the things that just happen when you put a gaggle of people together.  This forum has been the biggest blessing in my life.


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by james2069, Jul 16, 2008
thank you for such a wonderful great post!! Thank you!

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by bandnmom, Jul 16, 2008
Thank you for the nice comments!   :)

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by bandnmom, Jul 16, 2008
One more thing..for anyone that is lurking please think about joining the forum. It may just be the best thing you can do to help with your recovery.

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by dominosarah, Jul 16, 2008
This is a great post.  Thank you for this.  You are such a great asset to us.             sara

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by sadinmichigan, Jul 17, 2008
This is a great post Jen..thankyou for taking the time to write. I couldn't agree with you more about this site

I have been down the cold turkey road at least 6 times and I think what has made the most difference for me this time is all of the wonderful support that I have had, and although there are a few trouble makers at times..the good clearly out weighs those newbies,lurkers,and those who have been here awhile..don't let a few "off" responses get to you. Everyone here is in all different stages of addcition and recovery. We can get a little cranky LOL..I know I lurked for a month or so, I was unsure of what to say and not being much of a computer person i didn't know about how these things worked, but I am so glad i gave it a shot.       ~Lisa

You rock ya girl!!

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by wanttobeclean, Jul 17, 2008
Thank you so much for the post.  It hit so many chords with me.  Thanks for sharing your story. And congrats for sticking with it and staying clean so long.  I feel the same way about this site...I thought I'd just grab some ideas to help and that would be it.  This place has proved to be one of my saving graces these last 10 days.  Thanks to you and so many other wonderful people ready to share their story and advice.  I hope I'll be giving back just as much too.  

Thanks again!

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by bandnmom, Jul 17, 2008
Thank you all. You guys are sweet. I wanted to write this cuz there are so many new people to the forum that are struggling right now. I wanted them to see that is it possible and so worth going threw the c*** it takes to get there.
hugs to everyone!

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by lostdreams, Jul 17, 2008
Wonderful post Jen,
I totally agree with you and everyone else. This forum is a God send. It helped me in a very dark time and continues to do so. Love ya'll.

We can do this.....takes effort and determination, but its all achievable.

Jen:     Thank you so much for this and the support you have offered me.

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by merrymaria, Aug 05, 2008
you wrote it well...a blessing for us all..thank you so much and keep on truckin girl

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by grimgirl, Sep 10, 2008
I am SCARED TO DEATH to start this journey......HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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