Nov 02, 2015
Just wanted to share with all you ladies that finally, FINALLY after all these years, we're about to enter our IVF journey. We've been trying to raise and save the money and honestly I just about lost all hope that it would ever happen. Trying to save and raise that kind of money is almost impossible but a miracle happened and we're going for it. My emotions are all over the place. Inside I feel happy, hopeful but then the fear takes over. My one shot, ONE shot and I just pray that's all we need. I know there's no more after this one and I just break down. I have no idea how to handle all of these emotions, especially the negative ones. Any advice on that? I know I should just try to try to be positive but gosh it's so hard.
I've been emailing the Fertility Clinic and I have this huge packet. OMG so much to fill out for IVF. What to do with our eggs, donate or store them when we're done.. OMG!!
And here I am with the sperm issue. We haven't had Brian checked in awhile in hopes of SOMETHING being there on his next SA. I've read where there can be sperm there, but unable to get out. They'll do an ultrasound see if there's any and use a needle to extract them. I told Brian about this and he just giggled because I said "Oh if there's some, they'll get it" and he giggled after I told him how. I know he's totally okay with this. Ladies, if you pray, please pray they find something. I would love a child, NO MATTER how, but we all want our own if it's possible. This is going to be a new everything to us. I'm a stresser(I just made that a word lol) and I've always been a stresser, I can't help it. I just pray I'm able to handle this, mentally and physically, that Brian is able to also AND we get our long awaited BFP in the end.
Also, I was wondering. How many visits do you think Brian would have to go to? I'm going to call them this morning to get our first one set up, but I was just curious.
Thank you ladies SO much. I never thought this would be possible, I've held on to very little hope and I'm so thankful I did. It's happening and I can't believe it.