went to see coheed & cambria tonight w/my old BFF k, and my husband g. looking forward to the show but we had to drive an hour each way, but thats ok, i dont drink or anything so i didnt mind.
i had one panickey moment while driving but talked myself down in a few mins in my head and was alright w/out taking an xanax, which is good.
otherwise, the show was amazing, and i has fun, but im realizing although im trying to enjoy things, i cant loosen up and relax enough to actually enjoy them like i should. my therapist said im constantly anxious, and shes totally right. i really dont know how to decompress and destress and stop thinkig and actually relax and have a good time. im always worrying about one thing or another, constantly.
all in all though, it was fun and i havent hung out with k in a long time, or g for that matter, so i had as much fun as i could i guess, and it was coheed so thats cool. i felt pretty normal even, not too surreal like before or anything now that i corrected the dose of lamictal.