Yesterday: My mother was sitting behind me and i didn't feel comfortable writing. The only thing notable was that I took the boys to YAP and everyone loved them. Jeff got a bit scared and crabby, Finn peed on Shei, I saw the baby when I drove her home, and when I was at Steve's house Rex licked their pouch. I was so scaredhe bit them I didn't even want to open it and see. Tehy were completely freaking out. BOTH crabbing so loedly and so upset. I felt horrible. I thought I was going to pass out I was so scared. They seem ok. Scared ********, but ok. They're doing much better. I'm so terrified they'll be upset with me forever.
Today I did a lot of work it feels. Tons of book work in Culinary and Am Lit. OJ in Crim. It outrages me so much that I make angry faces at the tv and it tires me out and I fall asleep. I had a test in Algebra. It was multiple choioce, and it was almost funny cause I kept thinking I was diong it right till my answer looked nothing like any of the choices. Woops. I went to steve's house and he didn't want to and it made me feel ugly. I tried to be spontaneous and it didn't work and yes, I felt hideous. I know I'm overdramatic since it was fine later, but I had my feelings hurt. Why am I like this?
I bought his prom ticket and there was room at Jor and Josh's table, so I did like he said and wrote him down so we could sit there. I forgot my check of course. Then Jor comes to lunch to get Amanda and her boyfriends tickets and put them at their table, but since Jor is taking two dates, there is one extra spot taken up, so me and steve took amanda and her boyfriends spots. So Jor freaks out and they all move to a different table. I was excited, because it would be fun to sit with them, plus alex and alex were at that table too, oddly enough. As it turns out they were intending to sit with alex's friends, but jor and josh took the rest of the table up before his friends bought their tickets. I hear Jor say that they had it all planned out, everyone who would be at their table, and Steve'd screwed it up (Me). And then he texts Steve saying sorry things got screwed up and their won't be room, they really tried to find a table everyone could fit at but it wouldn't work. Liar. So now Jor is mad at Steve because steve was joking and said it was jor's fault for bringing two dates. And well it's my fault they're hating each other and I'm sorry and I don't want to look Jor or Josh or Amanda in the face. Which ***** because I sit with Josh at lunch and Amanda sits behind me in Am Lit. I was embarassed to sit in my seat with her behind me. I was so nervous and twitchy I kept getting hand cramps because I couldn't stop writing so quickly. I'm just sorry. My dress smells and I don't have jewelery and it's not going to fit and my hair won't do anything and we have no one to sit with, no way to get there, and nowhere to go afterwards, and steve has no tux yet. I'm just so much more stressed that I thought prom could cause. So stupid. I'm frusterated.