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Jul 18, 2008 - 14 comments

i have thoughts of killing myself, like taking alot of alcohol and valium and heroin.At the same time i can feel really happy, im a little confused, ive tried before, but i dont even drop. let alone die.

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by joann1975, Jul 18, 2008
please don't do that.... it will get better.

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by genix, Jul 18, 2008
ahh **** it, i cant be ****** doing it, too much hard work

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by kim715, Jul 18, 2008
Are you saying you're having that feeling right now?Please,if thats the case,keep talking,we're listening,you're not alone.Suicide is NEVER the answer,like Joann said it does get better.

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by cathy5841, Jul 18, 2008
hey dont do that.  we are here talk to us.

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by genix, Jul 18, 2008
its purely imaginative i have NO reason to want to die, its just another ******* chemical reaction in my head, i wrote a long note to my grandfather this morning and i cried the whole time, i been really enjoying crying lately like its been nice, i just have not felt this way for along time ( at least untill before i was on methadone )

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by genix, Jul 18, 2008
my doctor told me i border on genius and insanity

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by Jacqui805, Jul 18, 2008
I understand feeling like that...and you have to be feeling pretty frustrated I'm sure....Is there anyone you can really talk to about how you're feeling?  Either way, please keep talking....we may not all be physically close to you, but there are alot of people here who understand desperate feelings, and I'm sure other things you're going through too...I hate to see anyone suffering, physically or mentally, and if there's anything I can do, please let me help you in some way.  We're all here to have everyone's back as much as we are here to get support ourselves..so remember to lean when you need to.  I have often in life felt frustrated with certain things, or felt alone, like a black sheep....I'm sure there are many others here who can relate to that, maybe even yourself .  I also understand wanting things to end, and not actually feeling suicidal too, if that makes sense.  It's often purely out of frustration and the fatigue of dealing with painful physical or emotional things.  

Anyway, I'm sorry you are struggling...and I'm glad you said something...you have to start somewhere right?

Jacqui

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by genix, Jul 18, 2008
**** i dont know maybe i should take a couple of valium i dont know

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by kim715, Jul 18, 2008
Oh I'm so glad to hear that.You had me really worried there.I know what you mean even feeling sad and crying is better then feeling nothing at all,lets you know you're alive.

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by queenoblunts, Jul 19, 2008
I just started on here yestersay so I'm cruising the site.But I really hope that you don't do what you thought of.And yes it does feel good to cry! And I also understand about wanting things too end but I don't want too hurt myself.At the same time.

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by scaredmom330, Jul 19, 2008
please, please  do not do that, you have all of us here to talk to and keep doing it. It helps, you don't see our faces but our hearts and we all care about you.  You can make it, it's just the devil at his work, God is watching over you and I have faith you will make it..Please keep in touch and if you need to talk, I am here for you, my friend


God Bless
Karen

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by james2069, Jul 20, 2008
Genix, we all love ya man dont ever think of doing this, you are a great inspriration to many and your a really cool dude, were all in this together, your never alone, it feels damn good to cry man, the methadone wasnt letting me have any emotions.

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by extrmeski, Jul 20, 2008
I understand that feeling believe me, I've been tempted as I have been going through way too much lately.  You have thoughts that all the suffering would be over.  BUT!  Once it's over it's over, no redo's no going back it's over complete..  Now is that what you really want?  I mean think about it life has ups and downs, if I would have off'ed myself when I was younger I wouldn't have some of the amazing experiences I've had.  Have to take the highs and lows, right now my life couldn't be any lower but I just keep telling myself that it is temporary, eventually I'll have to cycle back up.  I hope this makes sense...

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by Jellybelly9130, Apr 13, 2013
If u ever needo someone to talk talk to me pleese dnt kill yourself

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