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Shaky and Sad

Apr 11, 2010 - 2 comments

I am ruining my relationship with my girlfriend who lives with me.  This neurontin is killing me and my mind.  I see what I am putting her through and my family.  Makes me feel real low and just such a piece of crap.

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by Pray2God4Help, Apr 11, 2010
I'M NOT ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARE ASKING FOR MONEY LIKE IVE SEEN ON HERE.  THATS JUST A SICK DISGRACE.    I AM LOOKING FOR SOMEONE TO GUIDE ME ....TO TELL ME .....AND IM SO LOST AND SICK THEY'D HAVE TO GIVE ME COMPLETE SPECIFICS.   I SWEAR TO OUR LORD I WOULD ACTUALLY GIVE SOMEONE MONEY OR ANY POSSESSION I HAVE THAT THEY DESIRE IF THEY'D BE MY SAVIOUR TO GET ME OFF THIS CRAP.   I AM SERIOUSLY GOING TO DIE.  AND I WANT TO LIVE.  I WANT A NORMAL LIFE.  I WANT TO WAKE UP HAPPY, GO TO WORK, COME HOME, KISS MY GIRLFRIEND, READ A NEWSPAPER, MAKE SOME DINNER, WATCH A MOVIE WITH HER..............WITHOUT HAVING TO BE HIGH FROM NEURONTIN.    IT MAKES ME FEEL OK.......BUT IN RIDICULOUS DOSES THAT I TAKE.   WHEN I TOOK THE 65 PILLS WITHIN 2 HOURS THAT DAY I DIDNT GO TO SLEEP FOR 2 DAYS, INSTEAD I WAS PACING AROUND, WALKING AROUND TOWN AT 3am ALONE, I ASK GOD TO HAVE MERCY ON MY BLACKENED SOUL.  I DONT THINK I CAN TAKE THIS MUCH LONGER....I AM NOT SUICIDAL, SO IM NOT LOOKING FOR SYMPATHY LIKE SOME............IM LOST FOR WORDS .  GOD HELP ME

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by girlnextdoor56, Apr 18, 2011
Wow..I seen your post on here and can empathize completely. I'm feeling the same way being on this stuff. I can't function unless I have some in my system. When I run out I can't do **** even taking a shower is a chore. I've looked all over the internet for anyone else that has this problem and have finally found you. I noticed your last post was about a year ago. How are you doing?
I never had issues with running out of my neurontins and lyricas until just recently. I've been on both for about 2 years now. I substitute one with the other when I run out of one, I have the other to fall back on. I've even gotten my Mom and my boyfriend to get them from their doctors so I can have backups when I run out. Which I'm starting to do way more now. I take rediculous amounts to try to feel the fuzzy good feeling that comes with taking too much of these meds.
I understand what you are saying and would like to be here to help you, I might not be the best, but I will try. It would be great to talk to someone else for once without being rediculed. Hope to hear from you soon!
-Heather-

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