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Dec 24, 2015 - 4 comments

I haven't been here since March of this year.  I'm surprised my top answerer scores still exist at all.  I woke up yesterday and my Facebook account was banned from writing publicly for 3 days because of a picture I had up for months that wasn't even really against guidelines at all if the person complaining actually knew anything and if Facebook didn't do this all in an automated system.  So I just told Facebook to delete my account since I'm getting in trouble for using it as I should.  I shouldn't have to unfairly censor myself in ways I shouldn't even have to in order to use it.  I'm kinda glad I have a reason to delete it anyway because I'm tired of how humanity as a species is too immature to have things like Facebook with how we all treat each other so badly on it because of that.  This is just another example of how I get treated like I'm a piece of garbage and can't realistically do anything about it except just stop caring like every other injustice in my life.  The only difference here is they probably did me a favor in actuality because I could barely stand the thing anyway.

Since I left, a good friend of mine of 15 years died and I finally realized soon after my marriage is a failure no matter what I could've done.  I was working nearly full time for 3 months to help support my useless spouse financially then I just up and quit because it sounded like my employer was going to fire me anyway some day and I got really poor mentally from the stress of everything since I am actually on disability through social security.  I was only working there with what was supposed to be a temporary basis to help support my ex-wife.  With the way things go I would've just lost my SSDI and then would've got fired so I guess I dodged the bullet on that one.  I wasn't even really told by anyone either outright I "needed to get better" at work until I put in my two week notice though looking back there were plenty of subtle hints in things people said.

In all I used up 6 out of the 9 months of my trial work period for some woman who thought signing out of Skype until further notice where we talked, since we live in different countries at the moment, was the solution to me complaining about her not being around to talk to me at all so I just blocked all forms of communication with her and I'm done.  I'm not even going to really get into the things she pulled on me the whole time we were together in real life and online to try to spare her her dignity and I'm tired of talking about it and just want to forget those things forever.  It makes me sad it came to this because I still love her but the path I was on to try to be with her with no guarantee was just suicide.

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by drifter0213, Dec 24, 2015
good to have you back my friend. I miss you I was thinking about you when I ran into an old post you always help me with the questions we need help in anxiety community I'm starting to help others now that I can think clearly good to hear from you yeah FB is c***

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by schizofriendia, Dec 24, 2015
I don't know man, my social life is virtually dead.  People I used to talk to a lot on Skype tell me they're too busy to respond to me ever but I see them going online/away/offline on it and things happen constantly like I asked one a question 12 days ago I kinda needed an answer for and I still haven't gotten a response.  Another time I had an important question and waited hours until I started making sarcastic remarks and they said "fine" almost immediately and answered me.  All I can assume from that was they were intentionally ignoring me all that time.  Another I told I deleted my Facebook and why in 2 messages total and then they messaged me later asking if I deleted my Facebook because they went to go post something on my timeline and then they asked why.  OK?

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by drifter0213, Dec 25, 2015
ps I shaved my head!

3236191 tn?1451021479
by schizofriendia, Dec 25, 2015
It's better than sitting through a haircut.

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