Jan 11, 2016
i stayed home sick today because i was so anxious about my appearance, it sounds very self-centered and maybe it is. the hardest part of e.d. recovery has been seeing myself gain weight, going from what i thought was attractive to this. my mother started outpatient today and i have therapy tomorrow, so that's alright. mostly i've been looking forward to my general hux figurine coming in the mail, which should be either tomorrow or the next day. something to stay alive for, i guess that's good. if i can stop self harming i can get back on tumblr, which is a good resource for me. ah, i think better times might be coming.