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Feb 03, 2016 - 5 comments

I want people to see how strong I am, how happy i can be even though i feel like crying inside. I promised myself every day of the holidays that this year was going to be a  good year. The truth is, if its not a good year, I will never forgive myself. I want everyone to see how brave and courageous I am, how positive i can be despite every possible thought in my head to be negative. I dont want to have a stone face walking around the school.

I'll show people how strong I am. I'll show myself how strong i am. Fake it till you make it.. right?
I CAN DO THIS. Just need to stay focused.

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by Hollus, Feb 03, 2016
You are strong and courageous and this year may have some ups and downs but it's going to be amazing!!  Chin up Marcy May; YOU CAN DO IT!!

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by Nighthawk61, Feb 03, 2016
I do believe the fake it til you make it thing, no doubt, pretty much every time I've gone for a job interview , on the inside i don't necessarily feel confident , but you wouldn't know it when i take control of an interview.  I think that's pretty normal for most adults. Yes, the "fake it til you make it" scheme works pretty well for most of us.

It is before the interview process begins that the jitters happen, and i guess you're talking about you getting the jitters still going in to the school , is that what you're saying ?

I'm wondering, and i've touched on it briefly with you recently, but i'm wondering if it might help you to go to that church group on Friday nights that you've gone to. I remember you really feeling good about yourself after going to a meeting at the church. That makes sense because when we're talking religion , it seems that one feels very equal with everyone , doesn't it to you ? It might be good for you to have some spiritual help along the way this year. What do you think ? Could you go with a friend to the Youth Group in the next couple of weeks ? and see if that might help you through out the week?

You have shown the students and the teachers and your family and yourself,  for quite awhile now, just how strong you can be. You need to understand in your heart that you've turned a corner, you've earned your spot in year 12. and that's not easy to do. Most drop outs leave in year 11, because they couldn't get through that level of work, BUT YOU DID. You earned a spot in the highest grade level.. All of the younger students are looking at you, like you used to look at the grade 12 students, with AWE. You are a hero to the younger students. and believe me, the teachers that know how hard you have struggled, and sometimes still do, have a lot of respect for you. Just as your friends that know you, and know how hard you've struggled appreciate that good attitude and smile instead of a stone face.

You need to be proud of yourself for what you've accomplished Marcy, now, Not everyone can get through high school if they are feeling as disconnected as you did in the earlier years.

You've gotten a hold of your studies, Please be proud of what you've accomplished. If you can truly give yourself the credit that you deserve, you'll not have nearly as much negative cross talk going on in your mind. So, remind yourself of your accomplishments. You can make up a short sentence that you can use to punch through the negativity.

I use ... "It is not an option" when anything negative pops into my mind. I won't allow it to ruin my day. It's a habit i got into and it works every time. Why don't you try it ?

It's funny but some times the simplest little good thing can outweigh and destroy the things that seem so big and looming in our lives. I guess that's the power of good being stronger than evil.

I think you need to go to the Youth Group honey., where they talk about having faith in the big picture. Don't you think it might help?


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by Nighthawk61, Feb 03, 2016
I do believe the fake it til you make it thing, no doubt, pretty much every time I've gone for a job interview , on the inside i don't necessarily feel confident , but you wouldn't know it when i take control of an interview.  I think that's pretty normal for most adults. Yes, the "fake it til you make it" scheme works pretty well for most of us.

It is before the interview process begins that the jitters happen, and i guess you're talking about you getting the jitters still going in to the school , is that what you're saying ?

I'm wondering, and i've touched on it briefly with you recently, but i'm wondering if it might help you to go to that church group on Friday nights that you've gone to. I remember you really feeling good about yourself after going to a meeting at the church. That makes sense because when we're talking religion , it seems that one feels very equal with everyone , doesn't it to you ? It might be good for you to have some spiritual help along the way this year. What do you think ? Could you go with a friend to the Youth Group in the next couple of weeks ? and see if that might help you through out the week?

You have shown the students and the teachers and your family and yourself,  for quite awhile now, just how strong you can be. You need to understand in your heart that you've turned a corner, you've earned your spot in year 12. and that's not easy to do. Most drop outs leave in year 11, because they couldn't get through that level of work, BUT YOU DID. You earned a spot in the highest grade level.. All of the younger students are looking at you, like you used to look at the grade 12 students, with AWE. You are a hero to the younger students. and believe me, the teachers that know how hard you have struggled, and sometimes still do, have a lot of respect for you. Just as your friends that know you, and know how hard you've struggled appreciate that good attitude and smile instead of a stone face.

You need to be proud of yourself for what you've accomplished Marcy, now, Not everyone can get through high school if they are feeling as disconnected as you did in the earlier years.

You've gotten a hold of your studies, Please be proud of what you've accomplished. If you can truly give yourself the credit that you deserve, you'll not have nearly as much negative cross talk going on in your mind. So, remind yourself of your accomplishments. You can make up a short sentence that you can use to punch through the negativity.

I use ... "It is not an option" when anything negative pops into my mind. I won't allow it to ruin my day. It's a habit i got into and it works every time. Why don't you try it ?

It's funny but some times the simplest little good thing can outweigh and destroy the things that seem so big and looming in our lives. I guess that's the power of good being stronger than evil.

I think you need to go to the Youth Group honey., where they talk about having faith in the big picture. Don't you think it might help?


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by mishymoshymarcy, Feb 04, 2016
Well my friend asked me again, I told her that i wont be going tomorrow, but instead next week. So I've promised her. So next friday i will be going to Youth Group again. I'd love to see everyone again.

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by mishymoshymarcy, Feb 04, 2016
Thank you Hollus!! Chin is up! I am going to beat the heck out of this year! Big hug to you xo

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