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Jul 28, 2008 - 2 comments

I have spent the last 21/2 weeks in France thinking, eating, thinking, cooking, thinking, walking, thinking, drinking delicious wine and thinking..................................
About life, about my family, close and extended, about my thyroid and my brush with cancer this year, about all the others out there who are struggling with this and other cancers.  I have been thinking about my friends and how much they mean to me.  About my son and my three step kids and the journey we have all been on together to make our 'family'.  I have been thinking long and hard about my relationships especially the one with my darling husband who I have totally taken for granted for too long. (And he, me it must be added!).
This had been such a bizarre year.  I have some answers but still lots of questions.  Reassurance but lots of  new and different worries.  I feel better than I have for a long time but am still struggling a bit with with the aching joints and tiredness.
But the main thing - the most frightening, awe inspiring thing I have had to think about is that a little cancer was found inside of me. It grew without me knowing anything about it.  It would have carried on growing but for another unrelated problem sending me to an Endo.  Me - My body - My life. All suddenly brought very sharply into focus.

Like I said, I have been thinking.....................................

And boy do I have LOT more thinking to do.......................and some changes to make.


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489725 tn?1280056153
by lagoya, Jul 28, 2008
hi
hope u had a nice holiday --i would say it was mostly reflecting on things rather than thinking but thats just a word
its amazing how something like cancer can shut so many doors in a persons face-but it can also  open up new ones more positive ones and make a person very aware of their life.
i dont have cancer but have seen  a few lost to it but for those who survive in my eyes they rebuid to a new inner strenght one that is deeply individual and full of euthamism .i hope u continue to feel better and all your thinking remains to be happy thoughts



479581 tn?1317761088
by dai3symae, Aug 03, 2008
What a beautiful place to do your thinking...I hope you had a great time.

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