May 09, 2010
I was in a pretty rotten mood earlier. I didn't have anyone to go to brunch to, so I sat by myself like a loner. Mom's voicemail was really sweet and I teared up listening to it. I was mad at Annie and Victoria and Pam last night for being super loud when they got back from going out, and I still had a lot of econ work to do. My jeans are still tight on me even though I've been trying hard to lose weight, and I feel fat from everything I ate yesterday.
However, talking to Annie just now really helped. I feel better about last night. I also know that today is a new day, and I can easily get back on track. I am not going to let my weight define me or rule my life. Yes, I want to lose weight, but I am the only one empowering it to let it influence me so much.
At lunch today I had yogurt with hemp and granola and a sliced banana. Seriously most delicious thing ever. I'm going to hit the books now. It's not even 2 o'clock yet; I'm going to turn this day around and enjoy my last Sunday of freshman year (well, as much as I can with a Monday final haha).