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May 09, 2010 - 7 comments

Today has been a wonderful and relaxing Mothers Day. My DD has been doing great and was so excited to honor me today, she has been counting down for a week. DD started saying her head was itching today so I decided to wash her hair. I knew I was about to face the inevitable. I wet her hair and started rubbing it with shampoo... when I pull my hand away it has hair on it...I realize that her treatments have caught up with her...her hair is falling out. I knew it was coming but I didn't want to believe it could happen to my baby girl. I wanted to cry the entire time I was washing her hair but her little face just kept smiling up at me. Then afterwards I was combing her hair out and when I was done there was a thick line of hair collected on the comb. I quickly covered it up because she loves her hair so much she is going to be devasted when she starts to notice the loss. Until it is noticeable I am not going to say anything to her because if I say something now but she can't see a change then she will obsess about it and make herself upset over and over again. I am beside myself and devastated, I can't believe this is happening to my baby girl.

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by nickieb85, May 09, 2010
Oh honey! I have read some of your updates about your daughter... My heart goes out to you and your family! I know your daughter will be devastated by losing her beautiful hair, but just remember the treatment is saving her life and her hair will always grow back =) (((HUGS)))

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by ashleighnb, May 09, 2010
Thanks nickie. I think my devastation is coming more from knowing how devastated she will be. We had to cut her hair down to about an inch after her surgery because it was so matted from the blood and not being able to brush it for weeks. She was devastated just about that but she got over it more quickly because she said she looked like grandma who has short hair. Having it completely gone is going to take a toll on her. She is a girly girl and this is just going to kill her. I will just have to stress to her that it will come back and the important thing is that the treatment will take away the cancer. We were talking last night because she asked when her hair was going to grow back and we were saying that her and the new baby could grow their hair back together and she liked that idea, so that might help again once the hair loss is more significant.

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by feather2e, May 09, 2010
oh sweetie I feel so bad for you. I cant believe how selfish I have been,when you are going through so much.My son had a beautiful head of curls and DH said that it was time we cut it, so reluctantly I took him yesterday and got it all chopped off. I was so sad and now feel very silly and ashamed I made such a fuss, when I think of what you and your little girl are going through. Are you going to try a wig? She might like the idea of playing dressup with accessories (hats scarves etc...)

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by melimeli, May 09, 2010
you could get an array of long and short wigs for her to have and play with... try to make it something that is a positive... for her..  you can have a different haircut everyday!  all different colors or something.. I am so sorry you/she is going through this!!!  Prayers for strength wisdom and healing.

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by TRENIECE, May 09, 2010
Let me start by saying happy mother's day to you! I'm sorry about your daughter's hair but as the other ladies said explain to her it will grow back. In the mean time i was in a beauty supply here and they had an wiiddee variety of kid styles in wigs and weaves. As mellimel stated it can be styled in allll types of styles and since she is a girly girl you can make it fun for her through the loss.

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by ashleighnb, May 09, 2010
Thanks ladies...she probably would like the whole wig idea.

feather2e -- don't feel bad, I would fuss over the smallest things before all this happened. Its kind of a wake up call that as long as everyone is happy and healthy the other things don't matter at all. She already has lots of bandana's in just about every color because she can't expose her surgery site to direct sunlight, so she is used to wearing something on her head everyday. I just feel so bad for her because she is so young and had so many dreams of what she wanted to do when she grew up and its just hard to see this little independent and outgoing child have to have so much pain and change in what she loves so much.

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by Heatherm4, May 10, 2010
Aw....that must be so hard! I think a good thing you could even do is just shave your hair so that she maybe wouldn't feel so bad about her own! Many people do that for their loved ones...I think it's a great honour!! :)

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