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May 11, 2010 - 0 comments
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iron man 2

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NECAPS

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hat

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testing

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steve

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Cold

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therapy

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Fran

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DSM IV Casebook

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smoothie

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sims

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ps2

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tux

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handsome

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shei

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taylor of shei

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amy of shei

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billy

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hyperventilating

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worry

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jealous

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pathetic



And we watched Iron Man 2. It was a good movie.

I stuttered through testing and wouldn't take off my new hat. And I sat with steve and was cold and felt so out of place, nobody wanted me at that table. I know it.

Came to my house, went to see Fran. I borrowed the DSM IV Casebook from her. I've been reading it. I'ma read ALL of it.

I made a smoothie and went to steve's. We played a little sims and he got mad at me and then we went to get his tux. I think he looks super handsome in it. I really love it, I'm glad I didn't let anyone tell me different. I'm so scared of prom im almost numb.

I came home and here I am.

Nah I missed something. Shei texted me to cancel saturday because of Amy's graduation. That's alright. She tells me a bit later she's with taylor working on billys project and high and at her school and I'm worried. I'm worried about her.
I won't lie, I'm also a jealous ***** and this is me calmed down. You should have seen me hyperventilating an hour ago. I was in tears. Because they'll have fun and she'll forgive taylor and it's not like i want her to not like taylor. I just want taylor to stop hurting her. That's it. And not take her from me. Please don't take her from me. She's 50% of everything I'm holding onto right now, I wouldn't know what to do if I lost her now. It's not fair. Steve said to just tell her I'm worried. But I couldn't. I'm pathetic already, I know that. And to show that I'm also insecure and jealous and stupid? It's not time for that. I need to be stronger. I'm just so horrible. I don't know.

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