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Waiting and worrying..

May 14, 2010 - 3 comments

Well I finally got a BFP! Yay! With that said now comes the waiting and worrying. I am trying to stay positive but when you have experienced losing a baby you realize how incredibly fragile life can be. I was so excited because we sooo want another baby. A trip to the grocery store (of all places) changed that.  I being newly pregnant no one can tell the difference. Then I saw a really pregnant woman in the store. I filled up with excitement thinking that will be me in a few months. Then my hopes fell. A little voice inside my head slapped me with the reality that that may not be true. My bubble popped. With a sigh I had to suck it up and tell myself to hope for the best. The minutes tick by like hours. I wish I could fast forward a bit so I know that the baby will be ok. These will be a long 10 weeks!

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by smr08, May 14, 2010
Congratulations on your BFP! I think everyone who expierences a loss will never be able to fully enjoy their pregnancy, it's the sad reality. All we can do is hope and pray that we never have to endure that pain again. I suffered 5 losses, 1 ectopic which resulted in the loss of my tube, 3 early m/c's, and the loss of my son at 5 months, i'm just not ready to give up, but I know i'll be walking on eggshells the whole 9 months. I hope you find strength and peace to enjoy every second of this wonderful journey your beginning. Prayers to you.                

~Lori~

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by krichar, May 14, 2010
Oh try not to worry to much, try to enjoy this. My fear is I will never see a bfp again. I am sure this time it is your turn! At least one of us gets to move on.... I am so very happy and excited for you!!!

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by Dragon1973, Jun 18, 2010
OMG Christina!

I didn't even know you got your BFP!!!!  Congratulations!!!!!  I just saw your moods saying you get to see the heartbeat!!!  OH WOW!  I haven't chatted with you in so long!  I am soooo very happy for you.  And I am praying that everything goes alright.  I know how worried you are, and I want you to be sooo happy for your pregnancy.  
I don't know if you saw, I recently was pregnant also and suffered a loss.  So I know first hand the fears you feel.

Anyway, try your best not to worry Mommy, the stress isn't good for you.  And you need to focus on being happy and enjoying your 9 months as the other comments say.  I don't want you to worry through out the whole thing and never have those moments when you can look back and say, I was happy and relieved.

I can't wait for your pictures and the rest of the good news!

You deserve this happiness.  You need to tell yourself that and more importantly - believe it.

All my love,
Sandi  :)  
(Dragon1973)
MedHelp Genetics Community Leader;
Down syndrome Community Leader & Ds Group Forum Founder/Moderator

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