Aug 03, 2008
I had no Severe Tramadol Withdrawal Symptoms today. Woo Hoo!
I was tired. But that's to be expected.
Pretending to be normal at work, and around others, during withdrawal, so your life isn't completely destroyed is tougher than it sounds. Esp at 44 days out!
Of course, there's the whole other theory of; Just Surrender, Give Up and Join The Winning Side. For now, I'm still fighting. Yesterday's retreat made me strong today.
So now my brain doesn't feel as much like a scrambled egg. It's working a bit better in there. Unless you count the apathy and lack of motivation, which is more than a little scary. I'm almost sure that I started taking Tramadol in 2003. Accident was in 2000, two years of taking almost nothing but doing lots of alternative medicine. Then I slowly worked thru the opiates until my Doctors got "opiate-freaked," and put me on the 'Oh So Safe Tramadol. '
There was a second accident (Do you think I should take that bumper sticker off my car that says "REAREND ME PLEASE!" ...) about 9 months ago? That didn't help. Both times. dead stopped and rear ended. I tend to forget about Accident #2. Probably the concussion. Hmm ... now that I think about it; having a concussion is a bit like going thru Tramadol withdrawal.
I wander ....
I worked a very short day; 3.5 hours. My work is physical, esp on Saturdays. I have a lingering effect from the bronchitis. I am also getting over having taken Zithromax to kill everything and prevent pneumonia. This is the first time I have prevented it from going onto pneumonia. So that makes me happy :)
As happy as you can be when you are tired, ok .. exhausted.
I think I might have had all the juice squeezed out of me? The vitamins my husband takes, I started taking, and they help a great deal. I know that, because I forgot to take them one day and BOOM! Super exhaustion versus exhaustion.
I was busy today and tried to pretend I was ok. As in, going outside the office into the bathroom to cough, blow my nose, and so on. Bronchitis gets messy. But that's ok, it's better than being on the soul sucking demon pill Tramadol.
I accuse the Tramadol withdrawal of crashing my immune system and leading me to bronchitis on Day 31? Yes. It stands accused.
Ok so I lived thru it but had to use the inhaler twice to breathe and had to use klonopin in the day! ACK! It's anxiety. It's from not being able to breathe. Luckily I came home and went to sleep for awhile. That helped.
My stomach is a tiny bit sore, so I am using a heating pad. Lovely. I love the heating pad, it helped me soooo much during heavy withdrawal. I must have alot of opiate receptors in my intestines!
No appetite. No thirst mechanism. Of course my head goes to; "What if that never returns?" ?????????? Maybe now it is coming from the z-pac. Let's hope.
I have been sore thru the lower back today, and not my leg as much.
I got thru my work day by having a tiny amount of honey to get me moving. A shower with Batherapy lavender helped me move. I woke up not happy, and had a dream that was weird, but not bloody like early withdrawal. OK, I dreamed someone was asking me to stop being mean and unkind to Tara Reid ... LOL!! I woke up last night at 4 am in back pain and had to get ice. I luckily took an antihistamine (one pill) and fell back asleep. I promise I won't be as mean to Tara Reid anymore ok? LOL!
But I was groggy. Coffee helped me get to work. I used several packs of emergen-C (I swear you guys must think I sell this stuff) in a big 50 ounce bottle of water. I put TART MONTGOMERY CHERRY JUICE in it also. Highly recommended. It eases pain in joints and helps withdrawal even with Benzos!
My goal is to drink two of those a day, which I did.
I used B-12 sublinguals. I used honey sticks I had left at work.
No one did any Brain surgery on me today. No wires reconnecting. No brain pain.
I love being around others and don't care for being alone in my house. Which is weird and I don't want my Dear Husband to go away without me knowing when he will come back. Also weird.
No Tramadol stuff. Bronchitis side effects only. YAY!
I don't wanna get too excited but MAN it was nice after the last few days! No drug thoughts except early morning wake up Demons which I avoid by practically jumping out of bed!
How are you all doing? Let me know ok?
It does get better ... even on days when it is bad. It is still not a day that you have taken the demon poison pill .... so that's a good thing!
Love and healing,