Jun 04, 2010
My numbers dropped from 699 yesterday to 412 today with my progesterone level rising up to 25. Still bleeding, but no more cramping. One more round of blood to do on Monday before the decision is made that it's 100% guarantee that I'm miscarrying. I was already prepared for the bad news today. I've built this wall around myself so when I hear the news I dont get so upset. I'm trying to stay strong which is hard to do, but I feel like such a failure because it's because of me that DH and I aren't getting pregnant. He's 100% healthy and I have this silly MTHFR blood clotting disorder. I'm just feeling less of a wife and woman at this point. I know it's silly to think that, but that's how I'm begining to feel.
Going to be staying off my feet the entire weekend and just try and rest. That's about all I can do at this point besides pray.