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2 days until surgery

Jun 06, 2010 - 7 comments

Well, it is only 2 days until I have my surgery.  I have to admit that I am pretty nervous about this one.  I guess it is normal to think of the what ifs.  Sometimes I feel close to a panic attack thinking what if I die?  Who will help my husband with Beka and will he be able to fight to keep my son with him (his dad is a real a&&).  I know that God is in control and that I need to put my trust in Him.  In my heart I know that everything is going to work out just fine, but MAN can our minds play games with us.  

I will be having a vertical incision from about 2 inches above my belly button to my pubic bone.  She said that they will stitch the inside and glue the outside.  That scares me a bit as I am used to having staples hold my incision together. I guess what bothers me the most is that my mom and dad have to leave the day of my surgery (Mom has a mandatory meeting at work) and taking 2 of my 3 kids home with her.  Braden (15) has football and is staying home.  I guess I am worried about feeling scared and lonely in the hospital with no one to talk to (Keith has to work, we need the money very badly).  I can honestly say that I only have one  friend who would be willing to drive 30 minutes to keep me company (sad huh?).  I know it is silly to feel this way.  I'm 35 years old and should not be scared to stay in the hospital by myself.  I will have a private room as that is all the hospital has.  Ok, enough of self pity.  I have it a LOT better than a lot of women and I need to focus on resting and getting as much sleep as possible while in the hospital.  I was dumb and signed up to help at a football fundraiser on the Saturday following my surgery.  I am signed up for a 2.5 hour shift with another parent.  I don't know what I was thinking!!  One of my not so smart moments LOL.  I seriously doubt that I am going to feel like sitting in the hot sun for 2.5 hours.  I will have to sweet talk my hubby into taking my shift.  

Sorry for being so silly.  I know that things will be fine and that God has me in His hands.  Please keep me in your prayers.  I am hoping to have my laptop at the hospital so I can get on here during the day.  

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by hdebbie7, Jun 06, 2010
Hi kasie, you will be fine you know you will being the dab hand at this you are. Im keeping you in my thoughts and prayers for tuesday and wish you all the best with lots and lots of hugs for when you come around. You know your body and what you have to do to get through this and you will be fighting fit and strong again in no time. Lots of love kasie Debs  x

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by Jammin50, Jun 07, 2010
My thoughts and prayers are with you, and trust God that all will go well!  Peace, Jeanette

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by Mimi81, Jun 07, 2010
I had stitches on the inside and glue on the outside and I personally thought it was a lot better than the staples. glue came off by the end of the week. Surgery sure puts one in a very vulnerable state. I don't blame you for feeling the way you do, it's all natural. Even though I live with my dad and 3 sisters and brother, I still felt vulnerable. Plus, you know how it is, everyone is either working or going to school. One of my sisters worked in the afternoon so I had her for most of the day. Even though this whole surgery and recovery has been one frustrating process, being my first and hopefully last one, I was still thankful to have family around me because there are those who have it far worse than I do. You are lucky that at least your mom took your kids with her, I lost mine to cancer 3 years ago and it has been so hard on top of the surgery. Even the thought of having a mother, near or far, sure brings comfort. To me, it doesn't matter how old we are, we are entitled to every feeling, especially at a difficult times ;). You live in the richest country in the world, one where medicine is accessible, and you will be in good hands. On top of that, God has you in his hands and He will be with you. When you feel alone, I suggest you bring a bible with you and read psalms, it refreshes my soul every time. And, of course, I will write you as much as I can and keep you in my prayers. Psalm 91 is one of my favorites:
      
"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. [a]

I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust."

good luck with surgery tomorrow. God Bless you and your family :)

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by ska4life1986, Jun 07, 2010
oh cazie mimi said it all there a lovely post, i do belive god will be good to you and i know you have a strong faith and it will stand to you ,you are a very strong and positive person fear is a scary feeling but it can also be a good feeling to because it gives us the courage to face things ,a good idea about  the bible even just to hold it in your hand it will comfort and ease you i wish i could help you more if i could i would i will also be here for you rember your not alone you will have your freinds on the forum x

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by dawnlyn, Jun 07, 2010
Kasie,

I wanted you to know that I am thinking about you and praying that all will be okay.....Sending positive thoughts your way.....Update when you can., Love, Dawnlyn

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by Gina3754, Jun 08, 2010
Kasie,

I am thinking and praying for you today and know you will do very well.  If an old woman of 56 can get through the surgery, you will do great!!!  Keep us posted on your recovery.  I sent you an e-mail the other day and was worried because I didn't hear from you.  I am glad that I was able to find this posting on Medhelp, so that I could send my thoughts and prayers to you.

Love, Gina

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by nyc lady, Jun 08, 2010
Kasie - hang in there.....will be thinking of you.....love you,Pam


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