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Oh my feelings are Raw and My Emotions on High..

Jun 07, 2010 - 1 comments



hurt feelings







Well I know I can't trust what I feel at this time in my life and I don't want' to make any decisions or anything like that.
But I have to vent some ware.  So this seems as good as place as any. I have had my 26 year Old Daughter Move home and part of her wants me to hold her and make her life all ok again. But this I can not fix for her and I myself have Just gotten done with a Year Long Chemo and my 2nd Fight with Cancer and I laid down for Months And I do Mean Months...So Now I'm in allot of Pain from laying down. From No Movement what so ever....I do need to find out what to do for this part of mylife.

I'm having a hard time with my 26 year old daughter and her always be better then me or has it harder then me and etc...
Now I know I just got done writing about my other Daughter Wedding that I just got threw and I know I will make it threw this. You see my Other Daughter is Moving at the End of June. And I know I will miss her but at the same time I don't want her back living in my house again.....

Now onto Life.... What does it hold..I'm scared kind of..You know the feelings are deep, the feelings feeling again is Just No Fun.. What do you do with all these feelings? How do I start to Unload them? Ware do I put the Junk that has taken over my life? I find myself needing to talk, I feel myself wanting Someone to Understand me. Hear what I say and say yes they have felt that also. Maybe what they did...I go looking for what can help me naturally but some days I'm so tired and Just want all the crap to end.

I do have days of Laughing and Having a Good time...But the days of tooo much feelings are way more...
Thanks for reading.........Ladyrhea4 Ah 29 days Clean off Methadone....

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by cfstorey, Jun 07, 2010
im here, i'm listening! I may not have the right things to say, or the right words, or have the understanding of everything you're going through, but i do care. As a 26 yr old leaning heavily on her own mom right now, i can understand the burden you're under. I know my mom has more going than to sit and worry with me. I mean her little brother is dying of cancer, her husband, the love of her life, is having to live and work two hours away and she misses him terribly, he two step sons treat her like crap, and she barely gets to see her new step grand child, as well as being over weight and battling diabetes. And here i am asking her to help glue my world back together because i'm too tender hearted to handle a major heartbreak alone. I may be on the other side of life from you, but i am here for you. I do understand some of it. Like the Sound of Music says - "let start at the very beginning, its a very good place to start".. start there - and unload one thing, big or small at a time. One step at a time. - love, Cathi

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