Jun 09, 2010
I feel like I'm drowning in a sea of should haves, would haves, could haves.
My life at this point feels like such a waste. What have I done with it? I'm almost 26. Not married. Didn't go to college. Work a basically dead end job. About to move back with my parents. Never been to Europe. Never lived outside Utah.
The nevers just keep adding up. They're almost equal now with all the horrible things I HAVE done.
And now I'm a nutcase. I can't imagine getting on a plane.....there goes my dreams of traveling. I know I'm hard to deal with, I'm so emotional and basically out of my mind.....there goes my dreams of marriage. Healthwise I'm in shambles, and I don't want to pass any of this crap I have on......so there goes my dreams of children.
I want to start over. This is not who I am suppose to be.
I'm suppose to be so much better then this.
How do I do this? How do I keep going on? Please tell me it's going to get better..
Please tell me how to fix everything. Please give me hope.