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My dream....

Jun 12, 2010 - 1 comments

I had a dream this morning about this little baby that I am carrying. I was in labor and at the hospital with my husband Some guy that did not look like a doctor came in and checked me. He said I was 10cm and 1% effaced. I felt like I had to pee and when I got up I was like the baby is coming. There were no doctors or nurses anywhere. Two ladies ran over to help one was on the phone trying to call someone to help and the other said she was a off duty nurse. So I thought the baby's head was coming out but it was her rear end. Her leg popped out and I reached down to touch it and I broke her leg!!! I was devestated!! The baby came out and it was a girl. They immediately said something is wrong with her. I looked and her face was really wrinkly and prune looking. Then I looked again and she looked perfect to me. No one was doing anything. I said wrap her up! No one listened. Steve wrap her up! He said I don't know how. Just do it! Then I was woken up by my daughter. I really wanted to see her up close!

This dream is very similar to my birth experience with my angel baby Hunter. I thought I had to pee sat down to go and his little foot was sticking out. I asked my cousin what it was and she said it was the cord but I knew it was his tiny foot. My doctor helped him out butt first just as in my dream. Something was wrong with my precious boy, he was not alive. After I woke up I kept playing my birth experience with Hunter all over in my mind again. He never had a chance. I wish things were different and my baby boy were here with me. Today was my due date for him. I should have my little boy here now with me. Not have to look at these pictures and little knick knacks that I have. I miss him!


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by krichar, Jun 12, 2010
Oh sweetie...i am so sorry!!!! I know how you are feeling. I don't think we will ever forget our little boys. They deserved to live, to have a chance. It is so unfair that we have to deal with this. But now maybe you will have a happy memory to try to ease the pain of that one!

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