I had the wackiest dream about working at an amusement park I completely made up and fabricated out of various parts of my life and movies I'd recently watched and everything in California.
I woke up and I played sims and felt totally worthless. Drove my dad home from his bike. Went to steves. Trampoline. Shei and billy and caelan came over. we jumped on the trampoline. drove around because caelan was very sleepy. I guess billy read all her messages to mr nick. Uh oh. steve ran into joshes house and slapped jordan, who chased him outside, but we had steves door open and the car in drive, and just took off. it was so funny. it wont end well.
Eventually I went to work. work was good! I got out early and had eaten Key Lime Pie and ate pudding and yummm and went back to steves house and we watche Ratatouille the way we used to, once upon a time.
I came home and I've been talking to shei for hours. About life and love and she listened to me rant about justin, and I'm amazed because no one ever has and if i wasn't in love before, i am now. but i was. And I am. And she told me about her own stupidass boys, and we talked about bad things that happened to us in our childhoods and we're now talking abuot pills. It's really serious. But that's a good thing. I haven't had an online serious conversation in years. And sure, face to face convos are good, but there's a freedom you have when you cant see each toher, when you only have to trust your hands and not your mouth. I really am so glad I met her. I can't even put it to words. I really can't. If I have something to be thankful for right now, it's that she survived.