Jul 08, 2010
One thing that is bothering me today is an ambulance bill I received. Luckily, I only have a $50 copay. I had a total of three ambulance rides (1 from my house to the closest ER, 1 from the ER to the hospital my insurance provider uses and 1 to the psych facility). The bill I got today was for the 1st ride - interesting how you 1) don't realize something will bother you until it's here, 2) something you didn't think would bother you, actually does and 3) something you thought would bother you, doesn't. I have terrible guilt about this ambulance ride, more so than the other 2. I just have to let this process itself out - and think and think...
I think about some aspect of my experience every single day, and I know I will for the rest of my life (you know, the life I was given a second chance at living the right way). I can't change the past, but I can learn from it. Each day I don't use, is another day I'm beyond grateful I lived through my overdose - and I'm here another day to kick ***, which I do - every single day.