Aug 12, 2008
Well, It has been literally over a month since I have had a "real" conversation with K (baby's Father). I am finding this more and more difficult on my own. He keeps repeating that "when he gets his paternity test results, he will go from there.."
WTF? And at this point he will have missed the entire pregnancy, put me through total emotional turmoil, and for what? It is PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE for this child to belong to ANYONE else. It is incredibly frustrating.. Not to mention we live in a tiny town and everyone knows. Eveyone knows we arent together, and I AM SURE they must think I am some sort of tramp due to the fact that K is denying paternity "until he knows." That defames my name and character..
Plus, financially I am in total disarray. I have NO ONE to help and bills mounding.. I have no idea how the hell I am going to afford just the basic for my baby.. No one is going to throw me a baby shower..
I wish life wasnt so freaking hard.