Aug 12, 2008
Just wanted to vent alittle bit. I am really bored and tired as I have not been sleeping well. It seems kind of silly after laying around all day doing nothing and then trying to convince your body it is time to sleep because your tired. All that of course brings on the teary-ness ( I am always like that when tired). I have been working on crocheting some coming home outfits to focus on the positive and it works for a majority of the time I think just recently it was because my son had a fever and all I wanted to do was hold him and pace around the house which of course I had to let my mom do. I hardly feel like his mom at times and I know that is completely foolish to even consider - I just keep reminding myself that he is too young and won't remember much of this but when I realize he has to go to my mom for anything it stings at times, I can't even (well I am not suppose) to lift him onto my own lap. He can climb up some of the time which is a great help. Ugggh my thoughts are all over the place - gotta go they are coming in from outside.