Jul 27, 2010
Decided to have a meltdown of sorts last night - the day had been fine, but leading into the evening, I started feeling depressed, so I started playing on the computer, thinking it would take my mind off whatever was bothering me. Before I knew it, I was trying to find out everything I could on what happens to the body during an opiate overdose. Everything my family/doctors told me was true, but I found there were some things they'd left out. I don't think it hit me until last night, just how close I came to dying. I find that extremely upsetting, but am guessing what I'm going through right now is normal. I can't change the past; I can only make sure I don't repeat previous mistakes. I imagine time is what I need to process how I'm feeling right now..