Aug 13, 2008
i'm a 16 year old female and up until about 2 weeks ago, i was always pretty healthy and enjoyed a normal life. i'm 5'2, 116 pounds and i don't smoke or drink or abuse drugs.
i started having these really weird heart palpitations. what i mean is, i feel my heart beating in my chest ALL the time. even when i'm not thinking about it. and it feels like it's pounding way too hard and way too fast. when i look at my chest, i expect my heart to come jumping out any minute.
i'm suffering from extreme anxiety and worry, since i have NO idea what is wrong with me and/or what's making me feel so awful. i told my parents about it, and they said it's all in my mind and that i should just 'relax'. but i know for a fact that the problem i'm having is physical.
i've seen 2 doctors, one a regular family doctor and the other one a cardiologist. i had an EKG test and blood test performed by my first doctor, and the blood test was fine, but the EKG was abnormal. i'm not sure how much it was off, since they never talk to me, only my parents. so my doc prescribed atenolol for me. i take one little pill a day, but i don't think it's helping me at all. sometimes i sneak in two pills, but i've stopped doing that because it might make things worse.
usually my heart problem is worse after i wake up from a night's sleep or even a nap. plus i have really weird/bad dreams and some other problems. it's so hard to go to sleep when i can feel my own heart pounding in my chest! my pulse is usually 73 or so. i'm pretty sure that's normal.
saw the cardiologist the next day and had an EKG test done and an ultrasound. also a breathing test. results were also normal. also another blood test, which i'm still waiting for the results. blood pressure is normal. pulse is normal. i see him again in two weeks, but i feel like i'm dying. i get weaker and weaker each passing day and no one is doing anything to help me. but dad is leaving for 2 weeks, and he is the only one in my family with a liscence to drive and we only have 1 car. plus i live about an hour away from the hospital, so if anything happens, i'll probably die before i even get there. they just won't listen to me, i keep telling them how sick i am but they don't even listen! they get mad and start yelling at me! i have no way of getting any medical attention! all i want is someone to listen to me!
before all this started, i hadn't had my peroid for about 2-3 months. i'm not sure if that means anything. but i got my period last week (thank god!). symptoms that i am having NOW include:
-constant, heavy heartbeat (24/7)
-dry skin and brittle nails
-shortness of breath (sighing, yawning constantly)
-anxiety, stress, worry, fatigue
-irritability and depression
-chest pain and discomfort (pressure, tightness, ETC.)
-soar muscles/muscle pain
-intolerance to heat
-cold hands and feet
-difficulty sleeping and eating and concentrating
-losing alot more hair than usual
-pain in my shoulders, back, sides, and neck
and NOW i'm starting to get flu/fever like symptoms that are:
-swollen throat glands (feels as if something is swollen in my throat!)
-yucky feeling in throat
-head pain/congestion and discomfort
my dad looked at my throat and said it looks like something's a little big in there, but i can't get any medical help for at least two weeks. i'm trying to tell myself that i'll be OK, but this is the most difficult thing in my life that i've ever had to deal with. especially since i have no idea WHAT is wrong with me HOW long it will last, and if it's life-threatening. no one deserves to go through this. but i'd rather lose my eyesight and go deaf than deal with all this. i just want feel how i did two weeks ago before all this weird **** happened!!
could i have diabetes? some complicated heart problem or strange disease? or perhaps a virus? my parents think i'm a hypochondriac, true that may be, but that doesn't make what i'm feeling any less real. i'm convinced that i have a serious medical problem. but no one believes me. except me and maybe a few other people. at leats my pulse is normal. that's a good sign, isn't it? i'm just so lost and confused!! i just hope i'll get better.
my dad told me that my thyroid results were normal. so what the hell is wrong with me? a disease? virus? infection? i'm not getting any proper medical care at all! no one is helping me and my parents refuse to check me into a hospital. alot of times i think i'm actually gonna die. maybe they want me to die. every day gets harder and harder and i don't know how long i'm gonna last. PLEASE HELP ME AND SUPPORT ME IF YOU CAN!!