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80 days....Wow! How my life has changed :)

Aug 02, 2010 - 8 comments
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Opiates

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Suboxone

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clean

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norcos



I can not believe it has already been 80 days since I have taken my last norco, and let me tell you, i miss them dearly, but the relationship is long gone. I have to remember the bad horrible things i went through, and remember how my life revolved around them. Now i can get up in the morning, go to work, have a good day, and not have to go buy pills or worry about working without them...I am still on suboxone, i see my doc next week and we have been tapering every 3 weeks...I am kinda scared to be off of it, but i really need too soon. Its just my enviorment living with my mom, and just everything in general. It really helps me not think about pills. But I am following my doctors orders and attending my early recovery meetings twice a week if i get off work in time, and my NA meetings. They really help alot and make me feel like I am not alone in this struggle. It would be so easy to just go pick up and get high, but that is why this is a struggle, we have to prove to ourselves that we can do it, and more importantly that we belive we are worth living a life drug free :)

I really like my job, i have been cutting tons of hair and meeting really nice people and its great to know i am doing this as the real me, and not a me that is hidden under tons of opiates that makes me out going. I am a happy outgoing person on my own. About a month ago i started wellbutrin and i really feel like my self again. I really do think i messed my brain up the past 3 years, but i am feeling great!!! Thanks for everyone that has helped me through this, and i want to help anyone that i can too. Feel free to message me anytime,

Thanks for reading.
Love,
Betsy (wishful1) xoxo

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by GoingToMakeIt, Aug 02, 2010
     I love success stories. Keep it up! Suboxone has helped you get your life back and get a routine going that doesn't include thinking about drugs. You will soon be telling us how many days free of Suboxone you are. Thanks for sharing your story.

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by wishful1, Aug 02, 2010
Thankyou so much :) it means alot to me!!! How are you doing?

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by GoingToMakeIt, Aug 02, 2010
    I'm pretty good. I just had back surgery 3-1/2 weeks ago. Radiating pain is now gone. I used pain killers before and after the surgery, but I didn't enjoy them. I stopped over two weeks ago. Today, I took 1/2 in the afternoon, and again this evening. I must have done too much and my body was scolding me for it.
   I'm glad to hear of your clean time. It sure feels good, doesn't it?

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by wishful1, Aug 03, 2010
Yes it does!! I just cant wait to get off the subs too, but its a scary thought for sure! But I can do it... :) I hope your back feels better, i have back pain too, and it *****!! But i have been taking ibuprofin and i guess it helps, but obviously there isnt any other options for us!!

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by lesson_learned, Aug 03, 2010
Congrats to you! I'm really anxious. I start Suboxone this Friday. But I have to go CT for 28 hours before I show up. Withdrawals are the WORST for me!! How was your first dose of Suboxone? I'm worried about getting sick or it not working enough. I just want to get off the Norco too, been on it a LONG time. I go through an astronomical amount, but no more. I'm tapering right now. Just still scared, it will be so nice to wake up and not be thinking about Norco, or the ritual I've allowed it to become. If that makes sense.

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by wishful1, Aug 04, 2010
I know exactly how you feel, it is a ritual, its the only thing u thnk about because the pills make u who u are and without them you cant function. trust me u are talking to the right person, my doctor would give me 300 and i would go through them in a week! No joke! suboxone has never given me a headachke like u asked me, and honestly it has made me feel fne through this. The first week ***** because u feel ok but ur mind is going through it. Read my past journals! ILL rght u back later, dude my "i" button on the keyboard is lke not workng lol

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by lesson_learned, Aug 05, 2010
Thanks for getting back to me! How long did you have to go through withdrawals before your first suboxone? I have no idea why my doc is making me wait a whole 28 hours. This is gonna be hell...=( I took my last Norco at 12pm.....I'm now starting to freak out silently in my mind- I will go read your journal.

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by north66, Sep 09, 2010

Just started on subuxone. It got me off my 25-30 norco a day and xanax cocaine valium ambian daily habit. 10 days no norcos. Does anyone have similar experience..looking to share a bit

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