Aug 02, 2010
I can not believe it has already been 80 days since I have taken my last norco, and let me tell you, i miss them dearly, but the relationship is long gone. I have to remember the bad horrible things i went through, and remember how my life revolved around them. Now i can get up in the morning, go to work, have a good day, and not have to go buy pills or worry about working without them...I am still on suboxone, i see my doc next week and we have been tapering every 3 weeks...I am kinda scared to be off of it, but i really need too soon. Its just my enviorment living with my mom, and just everything in general. It really helps me not think about pills. But I am following my doctors orders and attending my early recovery meetings twice a week if i get off work in time, and my NA meetings. They really help alot and make me feel like I am not alone in this struggle. It would be so easy to just go pick up and get high, but that is why this is a struggle, we have to prove to ourselves that we can do it, and more importantly that we belive we are worth living a life drug free :)
I really like my job, i have been cutting tons of hair and meeting really nice people and its great to know i am doing this as the real me, and not a me that is hidden under tons of opiates that makes me out going. I am a happy outgoing person on my own. About a month ago i started wellbutrin and i really feel like my self again. I really do think i messed my brain up the past 3 years, but i am feeling great!!! Thanks for everyone that has helped me through this, and i want to help anyone that i can too. Feel free to message me anytime,
Thanks for reading.
Betsy (wishful1) xoxo