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Aug 06, 2010 - 6 comments

This is just my luck...goes along with the rest of my damned life for the last 11 months. I finally talk Brandon into actually TRYING to get pregnant this month. And, of course, I don't ovulate. I've used the OPK for the last five days - I normally get a positive on Cycle Day 14. Well, today is 15, and nothing. And I'm out of OPKs. I'm not even going to buy more. I'm so discouraged. Maybe God is trying to tell me something. Maybe we just aren't supposed to have a baby together. Maybe that's why Ian was taken from us. And that's why both tubes couldn't be fixed. And that's why the one that was fixed showed "inconclusive." And now I'm not ovulating. Maybe we are just supposed to have each other and "his" and "mine" kids. Maybe we're not supposed to have "ours." What did I ever do the effing deserve this??? Why can't I get a break?

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by blueeyedtabbycat, Aug 06, 2010
oh Tricia I am so sorry! Maybe you are just going to ovulate late??? I keep praying for you. Life just isnt fair sometimes:~(

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by adgal, Aug 06, 2010
Oh Tricia.  I am sorry your having to go through this.  But honey, none of this is a result of anything you did.  Really crappy things sometimes happen to really great people.  I don't believe for a second this is God telling you anything of the sort.  You are a wonderful person and you are meant to have wonderful things.  Sometimes for some unknown reason people have to endure so much before their dream comes true.  I love you my friend, and please don't believe you deserved any of this...you didn't.  XOXO

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by rdh1981, Aug 06, 2010
Girl you better cut the crap now! Sorry to be so blunt, but  STOP torturing yourself. You did nothing to deserve this! This is not Ian or God telling you to call it quits!

You did nothing to deserve this and your not being punished. Yes, you have been dealt some seriously sh!tty cards, but you still have so many wonderful people surrounding you! You and Brandon are not going to give up and you will most certainly not continue to beat yourself up!

I will kick you in the behind the whole way of your journey if that is what it takes! You have come so far with your grief and life in general........you totally DESERVE happiness! Just wait and see!

Now you know I love you and I can talk to you like this because I have lived in your shoes!

Big Hugs!

Rachel



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by have 2 kids, Aug 06, 2010
Rachel said it very well.   You need to stop torturing yourself!!!!!   You do deserve to be happy.   Maybe God has another plan in store for the two of you.  Perhaps there is a child in this world that needs you and you don't know it yet.  

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by mi_amorcito, Aug 12, 2010
Tricia,

I was going through the same thing then I talked the doctor into putting me on Clomid you should just try it. Remember also that OPK's are not always correct..

I am praying for you but stop torturing yourself. Just pray pray and pray you will see a break soon..I promise..

Hugs
D

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by tatorbug40, Aug 18, 2010
those damn OPKs never worked right for me-  the month I got pregnant I thought we missed it because the test said I O like 4 days after we BD,  and DH didn't feel like doing it the day I got a positive test result...  so I thought we missed it.  But I must have O earlier then the test said,  because I got pregnant that month!  

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