This is just my luck...goes along with the rest of my damned life for the last 11 months. I finally talk Brandon into actually TRYING to get pregnant this month. And, of course, I don't ovulate. I've used the OPK for the last five days - I normally get a positive on Cycle Day 14. Well, today is 15, and nothing. And I'm out of OPKs. I'm not even going to buy more. I'm so discouraged. Maybe God is trying to tell me something. Maybe we just aren't supposed to have a baby together. Maybe that's why Ian was taken from us. And that's why both tubes couldn't be fixed. And that's why the one that was fixed showed "inconclusive." And now I'm not ovulating. Maybe we are just supposed to have each other and "his" and "mine" kids. Maybe we're not supposed to have "ours." What did I ever do the effing deserve this??? Why can't I get a break?