Aug 18, 2010
August 18th, 2010, 9:43 ET
As I cuddle with my cat Abby I can't help but smile at the thought of finally going to the hospital today to have my baby. I have been waiting for months to meet this little angel I cannot live without. This is a pretty exciting day. This day marks the start of something new, unknown yet beautiful: Motherhood. PK is going to be a mom soon. Somebody pinch me! :-)
I now remember when I first found out I was pregnant. Oh boy! I was really scared. I even thought of terminating my pregnancy. What a silly thing to even consider. This baby has changed me in ways no other person on Earth could or would do it. Not in a million years. As I got used to the idea of being pregnant I started realizing how much a mother would give and give up for her child. I certainly would do anything for my son.
My third trimester has proven to be a major challenge. I was diagnosed with Obstetric Cholestasis. No mother should have to go through this. However, I would do this all over again for him, for my son.
Today is just a matter of getting my cervix ready. I am only 30% effaced. I guess they will take care of that 70% at the hospital with meds and catheters and.....the fun stuff. I am 1 cm dilated. The contractions keep getting stronger and stronger as the hours go by. I am hoping these are good contractions. You know, the ones that take your breath away, the mean ones....those are the ones I've been having and I'm sure those are the good ones! hehe..
I'm not nervous. I guess Noah is. He has been moving nonstop these days, and kicking like there is no tomorrow!! Think he knows what's coming? :-) Hang in there little monkey. Mommy is going to get you out soon :-)
Today.....I am just relieved and happy. Thank you, friends, for all the support, the prayers and the wishes. Thank you all for the lovely notes. I love you all. But now I have to go get my hair done and make sure I'm not missing anything, like my phone charger, which I have to place in my bag immediately or I will forget :-) Placenta Brain? ha! It's a good thing my mum is here!