Mar 04, 2017
So overall I'm okay, because nothing is really wrong, however I've got myself all wound up for some reason. I think it's because the internet tech is supposed to come today. Either way, I've got all this extra energy, it's sick energy. It's energy pooling in my brain and in my chest, and pulsing in my limbs with nowhere to go. It's fight of flight energy but there's no emergency. So I'm going to try to work it out.
Edit: Overall today was a good, productive day. I used my energy. 2 long walks, sweeping, mopping, mending, prepping the laptop for mom. All sorts of things. But right now my anxiety is trying to take over. It's because of the new modem I got with the internet upgrade. Before I was worried about the wires, and now I'm worried because it's putting out heat. But those are not things to worry about. Nothing is wrong with the wires and modems always put out heat. It's normal. Mom says I can't keep assuming the worst, and so that's what I'm trying to do, but that's where my mind always chooses to go first. But like my Dr. said, I don't have to listen to those thoughts. I can choose to acknowledge them then release them.