Aug 19, 2008
Well, maybe this is the honeymoon phase not really sure. I am not sick to my stomach all the time, but I still have occasional food aversions. My face is definitely not as clear as it once was, but I think I am getting some of my energy back. I can actually stay up late at least one or two nights to enjoy a late night movie with the family anyway, but this usually results in a nap the next day. I am beginning to wonder if this is as good as it gets in the second trimester for me. Guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens.
We found out we are having a boy, so I couldn't be more pleased since that is exactly what I wanted. I have a girl and now I will have a boy. One of each sex, works great for me. Since my DD is almost 10, I have no baby stuff, but have been buying steadily since before my last miscarraige. I have got the major accessories such as infant car seat, crib, changing table, stroller, etc. I need boys clothes and a few items here and there like breast pump, bath tub, toys, etc. I am still keeping my eye out for a dresser, we don't have one yet. I am now debating on when to have my baby shower. I know this sounds selfish, but I would like to have it in the next month, so as I can see what items I may get given to me so that I know what I have left to buy.
Now that I am just about 20 weeks, it seems like these months have just flown by alot faster than I realized. I sure do hope that it stays that way and that this baby is here before I realize it is time, but at the same time I want to savor them.
I am a little jealous of all the stay at home Mom's right now. With my DD in school during the day it wasn't a big deal to work during the day, but now I find that I am doubting my choice to be a career mom. I love my job and I love the people I work with. I know that if I tried the whole stay at home routine that I would get so bored that I would beg for my job back, but I can't help but feel guilty already. I am taking off three months maternity leave, which will give me a lot of time to get the baby settled into a routine and rest up (I hope) to start working again. To bad I can't be in two places at once, because I would love to be with my baby all day, but I don't want to give up my job. Maybe I'll feel better once baby is here and we are in a routine. We'll see.