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A rainy day

Sep 07, 2010 - 0 comments

It's been a long time since we had more than just drizzle here in Dallas.  The alarm went off at 6:15am with reporters on the radio talking about all the rain we were going to get hit with today from tropical storm Hermes (sp?).  Since I haven't been reading the paper or listening to the news, it was all brand new news to me but I could already hear it hitting the roof of the house. The kids were not moving even after their alarms went off.  Too long a weekend I guess.  

Today I have no obvious sx.  The injection last night went okay.  It hurt a little and produce a mild welt and a bit more blood than usual but once I wiped it it was gone.  The welt wasn't discolored or red just slightly raised.  The thigh was a little sore but by the time I went to bed that was gone. No visible mark this morning when I woke up.

I turn on the computer and see an email from a dear friend who is writing to say her 93 yr old father fell and is in severe pain.  Fortunately the x-ray shows no break but he is in pain like something is broken.  She is worried but prayerful and leaning on her family.  It's been a rough road for her in the last few years.  Her mother died several years back and now her father is beginning to fail.  I remember when her mother died and her father had a hard time grasping that she had died (he is working his way to full blown alzheimers).  He would walk into the room and ask her where her mother was and my friend would have to tell him all over again that she died.  He would cry and grieve everytime she had to tell him this.  It was heartbreaking for everyone.  She survived however and will survive this valley.  Without a doubt she is the strongest Christian I know.  She lives her life every day in everyway according to the Word.  Her life is a prayer to God and is an inspiration to everyone around her.  I offered her my support but we all know that this is something she will just have to work her way through. But what I can do and what my children can do is pray for them individually and as a family. We can have a conversation with God about our thoughts, wishes and hopes for them during this time.  And so we will.   In her email she included a prayer about Saint Theresa that hits me square in the heart.

In case you are not aware, Saint Theresa is known as the Saint of the Little  
Ways, meaning she believed in doing the little things in life well and with  
great love.... She is represented by roses.

Saint Theresa's Prayer

May today there be peace within.
May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be.
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith.
May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that  
has been given to you.
May you be content knowing you are a child of God.
Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to  
sing, dance, praise and love.
It is there for each and every one of us..
* ************
'Worry looks around,
Sorry looks back, Faith looks up.'

Every line in that prayer is exactly what I believe. I think I am going to add that to my nightly prayer ritual until I know it by heart. I heard on the radio this morning that the first thing to go in your relationship with God is your prayer life.  Are you talking to God?  Are you listening to God?  If not, then how do you know you are on the right path?

I had blueberries and watermelon this morning before the kids left for school.  Sooooo good.  There is nothing better than fresh fruit in the morning.  The kids are still chirping about Homecoming.  Their plans are coming along nicely.  It great that they are at an age where they know what they like and are motivated to make it all happen. Off we all go our seperate ways doing our own things.  I go to the bagel shop, and to pick up some vitamins (the D vit's go pretty fast when you are taking 10,000 IU of it a day).  I select the vitamin D drops.  The one I choose is one drop equals 2000 IU's. It just seems quicker and easier to get it this way than via pills. Anyway, it's pouring.  I left my unbrella in the car when I am faced with pouring rain as I am coming out of the grocery.  There is a man standing just under the overhang waiting for it to stop before he makes a run for his car.  We start chatting about the weather, the traffic and the holiday weekend that just ended. After about 5-8 minutes we both decide that it's not stopping and we make bolt for our cars.

Oh, my phone is ringing and before I know it I have scheuled an electrictian for Thursday and some workmen to come over today at 10 am (it's now 9 am). Yikes, gotta get home and get part of the garage cleared out for the workmen to start their work.  I like to stay busy and if I wasn't I don't know if I would be all that happy.  Being productive is important to me, isn't it for everyone?  Still sometimes I do overdo it.  I did overdo it getting ready for the workmen.  Not a good thing. Gotta remember that when my ankle starts tingling and getting hot it's b/c I have gotten too overheated.  The danger isn't in the ankle, it's in the spine or the lesions (past and current) in my spine.

The workmen break for lunch and I head out to quickly order the sandwiches for the vball team for later today and drop off some stuff at Goodwill. Back again and continue working on the master closet. Argh, everything is so out of place!  Yet I am making progress. Not sure the timing is going to work out today getting the sandwiches to the school by 4:15pm.  Don't want to leave the workmen here alone and I am pretty sure it will be raining when school lets out so traffic will be a nightmare with no hopes of a quick run in and out.

I am back and forth between the master closet and the computer.  PTA stuff, miscellaneous emails and of course this journal are what I work on on the computer.  The closet and bath are finally done.  I need to take a shower but with the workmen around I don't think that will be happening.  I also want to swim but again, too many workmen here.  Instead I call SS to talk with a nurse.  They are going to be calling any day anyway to ck on how I am doing with my.  I talk with a nurse about the bruise (not bad and doesn't hurt) on my right thigh that I have just noticed.  Do I need to adjust the auto injector to a different setting?  Maybe but she thinks I nicked a capilary.  Not a big deal but can cause bruising.  She goes over how best to choose site and that different parts of the same area might require different settings.  It's going to be trial and error for a while.  I am keeping a record of each site, setting and reactions. if any, so hopefully after a month I should be good to go. She offers to send me a travel bag and some sort of cooling wrap for really hot days.  It's free so I say "Sure".

Called a friend to pick up and deliver the sandwiches to the school for me.  Just didn't want the stress of leaving the workmen here. Man oh man do I have great friends or what?  It's been wonderful having my friends rally around and support us since I got the dx.  They have always been there before but I rarely called on them other than getting the kids for me when I got in a jam.  This is different.  They have really jumped in when I have been in a bind and needed some extra help and to be honest I am asking for more than I ever would have.  It's just not in my nature to ask for help so this has been a good learning experience that sometimes receiving allow others to feel like they are contributing something.  I know it makes me feel better when I help a friend so who am I to deny others the same feeling?  Of course I feel guilty that I can't make it all work but I just cant allow myself to get stressed over it anymore.

No family dinner tonight as vball for kids and PTA meeting and church meeting for dh on the schedule.  My meeting is at the school so whenever the kids are ready I am leaving meeting to bring them home.  Think I will be shooting my left hip tonight.  I seem to like the left to right theme and my left side hasn't caused me any problems so far.

Appt at our house at 5:30pm. Dh came home just in time and I jumped in shower for first time so I would at least be clean for the meeting.  We are done in a few minutes and dh and I have discussion about the rest of the night.  He is heading off to vball then church mtg.  Should I go to vball before my mtg too?  Really need to get into the pool but want to see kids.  Dh convinces me to swim, so I do.  Really cold after a full day of rain but it is just what I need.  Get about 40 minutes in before I need to take another quick shower and head out to school for PTA meeting.  I arrive about 5 minutes late but they haven't started.

It's obvious the PTA President doesn't know who I am cause he is throwing my name around like he knows me yet there I sit right next to him and he is talking about me like I am not there.  It is a bit uncomfortable when he gets to my committee report and I speak up.  Funny, how people are always looking for someone to lead them and often times they are disappointed.  Someone requests I put a announcement together for the school email service to better advertise volunteer opportunities at the school.  Ok, I can do that. The meeting ends in an hour (the kids have been texting me the whole time to let me know they have gotten a ride home). The school principal comes up to me and  asks me to be present at a meeting next week to talk with new parents to the school.  Ah, okay, I guess I can fit that in.  What am I going to say, no?  Someone else snags me for lunch next week to "talk".  Boy, handn't intended this quick meeting to produce so much work!  My right foot/ankle area is a bit warm and tingling.  Darn. Just too much going on.

Make it home and the kids are busy with homework.  Dh still at church meeting.  At 8:45 I am getting nervous as it is getting close to shot time. Finally dh comes in door.  I begin preparing my shot.  As the time draws near to inject, the more anxious I become.  Hopefully this will subside as I get more experienced. The prep for the shot turns into a comedy.  No shower before this time so I heat up a heat pack to apply to my hip.  Asking dh to help me decide where to actually place autoinjector on hip, wipe site then inject.  Didn't feel it. Little blood then some heat from injection area.  It's a success.  Then I realized that I never put heating pack on my hip to warm it up.  Oh well, it worked.  I do apply an ice pack after.

Kids still up doing homework and studying at 10:15pm (that is what staying after school for vball will do for you). I make lunches and am finishing this so I can go to bed.  A long day of rain kepted me indoors most of the day but there was never a lack of stuff to keep me occupied.  Hope tomorrow will be a slightly slower pace.

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