Sep 16, 2010
After being on opiates for 7 years, I am slowly coming back to life. When I used to look out the window, it didn't matter whether it was sunny, rainy or snowy. Now I see the sun, and I am greatful to feel it on my face. I used to take my health for granted. After going through withdrawals, I'll never again complain about a mild ache or pain. I used to feel so overwhelmed, and pushed myself to do multiple things throughout the day. Now I am happy if I am able to do a few things, knowing there is more to life than work. Raising my son on my own, I used to ask God how can I do this alone. Now I am so happy when he comes home, knowing he is a gift that was given to me, a gift to be cherished. I wondered the last 7 years what was happening to my mind, as time went on, I no longer felt any emotion. Now when I see something to cheer for, I get excited. When I see something sad, I have empathy. No, I have come to realize I wasn't a bad person on opiates, just a different person. I became someone I didn't even know, and didn't realize it was the opiates doing it to me. This withdrawal has been difficult, but I am greatful I woke up in time. I have a lifetime to do things with a fresh new perspective on life. Although both my husband and ex-husband passed away last year, and life at times has not been easy (nor is it for anyone) I am trusting God that He brought me this far, He will carry me every day and make me a stronger person for it. God bless and strengthen all of us.