Aug 20, 2008
So, I had a stress test and an echocardiogram today, no results yet though. I know have to go thru the torture of waiting to hear back from my cardiologist. As for my anxiety.....I felt really weird today. But I did manage to drive myself to my appt (in the rain).......and went to Target after!!! YEA! That was a big step for me. I go to work in the morning for the 1st time in a week. I am anxious about that. Hope it goes well. Also I am going to try to start the lexapro again tomorrow. I only took one pill the 1st time and did't take another because I felt it made me feel "psychotic"....but maybe I was overreacting, and let the anxiety get the best of me. Maybe it coldn't have been the lexapro, it was only one pill, and it takes a while for it to get in your system. Or maybe I should tell my doc to decrease it from 10mg to 5mg. But I know I have to take some kind of med if I want to get better. And where are my friends when I need them. Why does it seem that I am going thru this all alone!! I am just really scared!! I want my life back!!