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40 Days and fighting!

Sep 22, 2010 - 0 comments


Wow today marks 40 days for me! I am thankful to be sitting here writing this to you and not in jail or not dead! My life was spiraling out of control and fast! My mind wants to wrestle with me everyday about my addiction but at the end of each day I won the battle! I think back of everything I had to go through to get here and I am thankful for God putting me through that. I know it may sound weird by being thankful but it has made me stronger and made me realize the life that I was given was almost gone for good. We have a precious gift from God and that is life and he let's us make our own decisions and when we make a bad decision He disciplines us but we have to make the choice to go through it! When we do persevere through this he gives us another chance at life. My relationships have been restored with my family, husband, friends and most importantly back to God! Sometimes we have to hit rock bottom in order to come out of this alive. I pray everyday for the people who come on this site and are just about to experience hell (WD.s)- that's what it feels like the first 72 hours the feeling of crawling out of your own skin and having a battle with your own mind. What a wake up call in what we put into our bodies!
I continue to fight the good fight and I put my armor on daily! The devil is like a seeking Lion ready to devour at any given minute. Keep your Guard up! This is a life long battle but we are SURVIVORS!!!
God Bless~

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