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Apr 30, 2019 - 0 comments
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HIV Transmission

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HIV Prevention

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HIV

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dealing with anxiety

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STDs

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HIV & Oral Sex

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CSW

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drunk



After 2.5 years of stress, anxiety, a downward spiraling relationship due to my fear of HIV and unable to concentrate on my job i got tested for HIV.  Like many of us i read each post, searched key words, tried to find a scenario that was just like mine.  I didn't think my exposure was very high risk, i got drunk, i ended up with  CSW in my room, we engaged in oral sex and that was all I recall.  i read all posts in the past 2.5 years just like my situation.  I read all the replies from the doctors to putting the event behind me, all the facts, in 8+ years no-one with a nervous situation ever diagnosed positive on the Medhelp site, in the doctors 30 + of experience in STD care no-one tested positive after a single exposure.  When you are absorbed with fear  none of those words work.  I was always trying to play the event over in my mind, what if something else happened that night?  it ate away at me for 2+ years.  After finding excuses not too, I decided to get tested, INSTA quick test and 4th Gen test and just like that my anxiety was lifted and immediately looked back at what i was doing and the time I had lost over  he past 2+ years.  It wasn't easy walking into a clinic but the advice that I received here through the forum users and the doctors and the statistical data drove me to do the right thing.  My risk was low but to some, like me, that was irrelevant.  Follow the advise here, in this forum, know the risks and that the odds are overwhelmingly in your favor and  don't waste years like I did drowning in anxiety

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