9 dpo

Today is 9dpo. I dont know how I really feel about this cycle this month. I wanted to test this morning but decided to wait it out a couple more days. Im so use to seeing BFN that I feel like I always get myself worked up for no reason. Lately I have had no AF pains really just mild stomach cramps here and there. i did have some AF feelings before my HCG injection and I felt a lil off like my period was gonna come early. The last 4 days I have been hungry but I have no appetitate no taste for anything and i only ate to keep myself from dying lol. That must be the metformin. I had a estrodial test done on Wed to see if even ovulated and the darn clinic still says my results are not in WTH!! i mean at least if they tell me I dint ovulate I can stop thinking about this whole TTW thing!  Im really going to take a break this next cycle this is just all to much to bare. I told God that If this is not it i wont get mad at him this time I will just take it as he doesnt want me to have a child now and try my hardest to know his plan is perfect and he knows whats best for me. I need lots of prayer ladies that i will just stay strong and continue to fight this battle knowing that I will win. SSBD to all! God bless