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Day 45

Oct 03, 2010 - 0 comments
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Today is day 45 free of trams. I am on a family vacation- which is a little stressful with grandkids and being so busy all the time.  I have to say I still think about trams, but being so busy and in need of energy, I think...hmmm maybe if in took just a tiny piece of one, it wouldnt hurt and I would be feeling happy and energetic.  Is that true??  NO!!!!   I would soon be realizing I was back at the start of my addiction.  Back at feeling even worse. Back at having HUGE mood swings,  back at living in a way that negatively affected my relationshiips with others but most importantly God.  You see I feel the trams had become my God.  They ruled my life.  I am so tired.  More on this  tomorrow.
Beth        

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