Nov 01, 2010
Since I have had Trinity I have been so back an fourth. I want another baby, there is no way I could have another baby. When she was first born I was in so much pain and so depressed I knew then I did not want another. Husband went and got fixed because the Dr told us that my scar from my previous surgery had started thinning already making any futer pregnancy that much more of a risk. Now that it is done I feel so depressed some days, then there are time when I am so worn out and exhausted and I feel like there is no way I could do it again anyway. I have 2 teens one is a junior and the other a freshman. So it's not like she is my only, but I feel so sad when I think that she is my last. And when I think of her growing up alone, I really feel bad. I guess it doesn't matter anyway since he has made sure of it, but you know there are ways around that. UGH!!!! Why can't I make up my mind???