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Nov 05, 2010 - 0 comments

I've had a yicky stomach feeling for a week now.

Starting Saturday night and hitting a peak on Tuesday night, I had a kidney stone, which is the worst pain I've ever felt in my entire life. I've had stones before, and everytime I'm doubled over in pain....vomiting, crying, can't get comfortable. Every other time I've taken a pain pill and was able to sleep through most of it. This time though was the first stone I've had since acquiring anxiety, and it was horrible.

When the pain pill seemed to be working, I got scared that I was dying. The pain didn't go away, but I started to feel a little numb in my chest, and that scared me. I felt like I couldn't breathe. I had a panic attack, my first one in a really long time. My teeth were chattering and I was shaking uncontrollably, begging my mom to take me to the hospital. I knew I was dying. Not only was I panicking, but I was in so much pain and I couldn't stop throwing up. I forgot everything I've learned about handling a panic attack because there were just too many other things happening at once. It was 3 a.m. and I hadn't slept at all, and on top of that I was keeping my parents up because I couldn't stop crying...thinking I was about to die.

Since then I've felt completely nauseas and I can't eat without getting sick. The feeling has me on the verge of panic because I don't know what's going on. The kidney pain is gone, I think the stone passed, but the sickness stays. I just feel weird and off and tired and blah.

I'm also on my period a whole week early, which isn't helping matters.

I just wish I knew what was going on with my body and my mind.

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