Nov 06, 2010
Well, my SCH seems to be getting smaller according to the U/S tech but I see the OB on Monday for confirmation and what happens from here. I'm feeling a little more optimistic but I just read on another thread that a woman just had her baby boy at 25wks. I'm 25wks tomorrow but my God, her baby is so tiny that I can't imagine if I had my baby tomorrow.
This pregnancy had been so hard emotionally and physically. I have now been on modified bedrest for 10wks and it is so hard with the boys and juggling schedules and help that I feel so useless as a mother and a wife.
My husband is getting increasingly less patient and I can't blame him. Pelvic rest is hard on a relationship and he works and then has to pick up the slack when he gets home because I can't cook and clean and care for my kids which is MY JOB!!! I am frustrated and exhausted from the stress and worry. My baby boy is growing fine right now and it seems things are getting better and healing but there is still the risk of preterm labour and I'm terrified of losing this little boy.
I feel so tired some days and I really don't do anything. Normally, I am so active. I walk or run everyday at least 6km with both of my boys in the stroller and I am not used to being so inactive. I feel like my body has aged 10yrs this pregnancy and I don't know how I am going to bounce back when I can finally come off of bedrest or after having the baby.
Ok...starting to ramble. I'll write later when my head is clear.