Dec 04, 2010
so it happened. i slipped. last monday b4 thanksgiving. everyday since. zero on hand this morning. i'm in a bit of a fog, but i'm going to go try and work that out of my system at the gym soon.
i have been working out more often. my self esteem is better. clothes easier to wear.
boyfriend and i are getting along again. so tired of the ups and downs. we actually saw each other 3 times this past week. part of me wants to pull away and start dating other people, but the other part of me knows i did this many times and i always ended up wanting to go back to my homebase. i think i'm old enough now to know that he is the one i want to be with. i have not experienced such the range of emotions as i have with him. that's hard to walk away from- partly because i don't want to go through what we've been through with anyone else and partly because we have been through what we have been through- ups and downs, good/bad, happy/not-so-happy.
i still don't have a job. i hope that changes soon. unemployment insurance will run out soon.
i had to apply for SSDI and am still waiting to hear back about whether or not i will receive it. if i do...hmmmmmmm
as for sleep, it's been quite excessive, but at least i'm getting up early-usually before 6. i either nap or sleep hella early