Jan 11, 2011
So it's been over a year now since my first panic attack.
I can't believe that I made it this long. I remember last year thinking that I wouldn't survive one more second, let alone an entire year. I'm in such a different place now, it's really hard for me to even remember the state of mind....the chaos......the fear I was in a year ago.
At this time last year I was non stop crying, having panic attacks back to back, sleeping no more then 15 minutes at a time totaling maybe an hour each night, I couldn't see straight, I was shaking all the time, I couldn't eat, I couldn't be more then a few feet away from my mom, I thought I had every disease imagineable, I thought I was going to die, I thought I was going crazy, I thought I was going to hurt myself or someone else, and I thought my life was completely over.
And now here I am, living. Like a normal person......for the most part.
I'm so, so thankful for how far I've come and for the help everyone has given me. I'm very thankful for this site and for all the people that have given my advice along the way.
I'm thankful to be alive and well, and I'm thankful that I'm learning how to manage my anxiety. I'm especially thankful for my lack of panic attacks recently....that's pretty awesome.