Jan 24, 2011
So last night I came to the realization that even though I have been working a strong program in AA, I have been neglecting to do some of the simple things I did in the beginning that got me to the point I am. I decided to make a commitment to get back to the basics.
First, I am getting back into my prayer life. I got down on my knees and prayed last night before bed and again when I woke up this morning. For me, it doesn't have to be a deep, philosophically charged prayer, but usually "Thank you for keeping me sober today, please help me to stay sober tomorrow, and please give me knowledge of your will for me and the power to carry that out." Just this simple act allows me to start my day off spiritually fit. I noticed the difference as I went to work at the restaurant this morning. Managing a restaurant can be a stressful job, but I usually have a few moments throughout the day where I can stop what I'm doing and center myself. It is in those times today I took a few quick minutes to pray and meditate. Just doing this simple spiritual exercise helped me tremendously today.
Secondly, last night (and in a few minutes, again) I did a 10th step. The 10th step is just a daily inventory of myself that should be taken nightly. I hadn't done one of these in a few weeks but luckily, nothing really piled up on my mind because of it. Constructively reviewing my day this way helps me to see where I did wrong, where I did right, and how to improve myself when the next opportunity comes along. It also allows me to go to bed with a clear conscience, an amazing feeling.
Third, I called my sponsor. It's easy for me to get lazy and not call him every day since I finished the steps and haven't really had any major issues lately, but I need to get back to calling him every day. Even if it is just to check in and say hi, it helps me to stay centered in my recovery. Getting his outside perspective on things that are going on with me enables me to make better decisions and think more clearly on issues that may be bothering me.
Last, I am going to begin working the steps in the NA program. I worked them in the AA program and they are the same in NA, but they use a workbook that is guided instead of AA where the sponsor just takes the sponsee through the steps as he was taken by his sponsor. It will be good for me to go through the steps again, reexamining some of the things in my past that I may need to do some more work on.
By doing all of this, I had an extremely serene day. Made a meeting tonight, too. It's crazy to think that taking 15-20 minutes out of the day to do these things can improve the quality of my day so much. Now it's off to bed, I am taking my Dad to the airport in the morning for a business trip so I have to be up much too early lol. Goodnight!