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The Past is coming back

Sep 06, 2008 - 0 comments

Today has been kinda a sucky day for me.  I laid around and done absolutely nothing except think about the past.  I will be so glad when these thoughts go away.  I thought after 100 days they would be gone.  It isn't as often, but when I do think about them, I begin to feel guilty.  Guilty for ever getting addicted to them, guilty for taking them from family and friends, just guilty period.  I know that I never will be able to make up for what I did, and believe me, they won't let me forget about it.  Everytime I see them (my in-laws), whispering and talking, I think they are talking about me.  Most of the time they are.  I just don't understand why they don't let it go, I mean each of them have skeletons in their closets that I don't bring out.  I don't know why they think their sins are forgivable but mine aren't.

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