Sep 06, 2008
Today has been kinda a sucky day for me. I laid around and done absolutely nothing except think about the past. I will be so glad when these thoughts go away. I thought after 100 days they would be gone. It isn't as often, but when I do think about them, I begin to feel guilty. Guilty for ever getting addicted to them, guilty for taking them from family and friends, just guilty period. I know that I never will be able to make up for what I did, and believe me, they won't let me forget about it. Everytime I see them (my in-laws), whispering and talking, I think they are talking about me. Most of the time they are. I just don't understand why they don't let it go, I mean each of them have skeletons in their closets that I don't bring out. I don't know why they think their sins are forgivable but mine aren't.