Jan 28, 2011
I can't believe how fast time flies. It's almost unfathomable that Ariana is 8 1/2 months now. She's closer to being one year than she is to being a newborn!! I cannot even tell you how much I miss that newborn stage. I miss being in the hospital with her almost most out of all of it.
She has grown so fast and I'm so proud of her! Now she is sitting up, rolling over, pulling up, crawling EVERWHERE, laughing all the time, feeding herself... the list goes on. She's learned how to use a straw & a sippy cup too! Where did my tiny little 7 lb baby go?!
I'm not excited for her 1st birthday to come. I'm not excited at all. Actually I'm dreading it and thinking about it makes me really sad. I think the feeling comes from the fact that I know DH and I are done having children. I do not have desire for another child, and I know that I will never desire to have another child. I DO miss the newborn stage, and I know baby fever will hit soon enough. But I will be able to distinguish between baby fever & wanting to raise another son/daughter.
The fact that I've only experienced a full term pregnancy, delivery, hospital stay, and newborn stage once makes me really sad. I WISH i could replay that part of my life. Every moment was so special. I'm definitely embracing the moment she is in now because I know in the blink of an eye it'll pass and I'll miss this too. :/