Jan 31, 2011
I am feeling really, really good. I haven't had a panic attack in a really long time, and my anxiety day to day is pretty much nonexistent. I still have moments where I feel a little anxious, but it's a million times better then it was, and I feel like it's no longer controlling my life.
I wish I could got back in time to when I was in the thick of it, when I thought I was going to die or lose my mind or that my life was completely over, and tell myself that really, things will be okay. Though at the time I probably wouldn't have believed it. I'm astonished at how far I've come, how good I feel, and how NON-ANXIOUS I am all the time. It's amazing, and I feel so blessed to be where I can see the light again. I'm glad that I'm feeling normal, I thought the day would never come.
I know that I'm going to deal with anxiety for the rest of my life, but I'm proud at how much better I am at coping with it. I mean, I haven't googled any medical ailments in months!!! That's amazing, because I use to spend a good amount of everyday on the internet convinced I was about to die of a million different things.
I am just so, so thankful for how far I've come and for the community here who supported me through it all. There are so many wonderful people that gave encouragement or answered my completely ridiculous, panic riddled questions without judgment. I really don't think I would have made it through without the people on this site.
Things are just really, really good.