Feb 24, 2011
Okay so I don't have a diary so i'll use this instead.
I've really messed things up bad this time. I lost the last few people that cared about me and it's all my fault and theres no way I can get them back. I've can barely recognise myself anymore. I've never felt more alone. I almosted attempted sucide last night but instead I waited and no one came to check on me all night. So what if I had decided to go through with it?
My parents are so ashamed of me for my attitude and actions lately it makes me want to cry when I see that look in they're eyes, but they only reason they can't take a giant **** on my head is probably because they feel bad for me or they don't know what to do with me.
I'm tired of people saying I can fix things when I so obviously can't. I just want to know what I should do next.
I'm running out of reasons for all this.