Feb 25, 2011
so anyhow i led there holding baby and felt awfully sad, the birth hadnt beeen what i wanted and id ended up being a screamer something id never been and as they took my little girl to weigh and dress her i just remember thinking its all over and the dissapointment was overwhelming...i cried for an hour.
hubby held baby as i had no interest, i had afterpains which were much like the contractions and was uncomfortable and the midwife kept saying did i want to go home?
i really cried when they handed her back to me as they prepeard to wheel me to the ward arund 2am and the midwife said that because my cervix was a little too slack thats why it had problems coming over babies head properly otherwise i could have pushed, she said her insistance wasnt anger and that i did really well, but i had screamed and she said the urge is sooo strong you had to do something to conteract the force as we needed you to not push and she was upset that i was so sad, but i think as i feel this may be my last birthing experience and that its not as perfect as i felt my previous was, ive somehow dissapointed myself.
anyhow, they sent me home the next day!
it took a day but we've named her Taylor Rose Brown and she's perfect!
today 3 days post delivery but just under 3 days old she weighs 6lbs 10.5ozs so not lost quite her 10% she has fed almost non stop and so my milk is in and im weeepy, very sore and have very full boobs but it does mean she sleeps for a while now she's a bit fuller, ive washed her hair as it was full of birthing gunk and she's so cute and ***** her thumb tucking her little finger over her nose!!