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Feb 25, 2011 - 9 comments

so anyhow i led there holding baby and felt awfully sad, the birth hadnt beeen what i wanted and id ended up being a screamer something id never been and as they took my little girl to weigh and dress her i just remember thinking its all over and the dissapointment was overwhelming...i cried for an hour.
hubby held baby as i had no interest, i had afterpains which were much like the contractions and was uncomfortable and the midwife kept saying did i want to go home?
i really cried when they handed her back to me as they prepeard to wheel me to the ward arund 2am and the midwife said that because my cervix was a little too slack thats why it had problems coming over babies head properly otherwise i could have pushed, she said her insistance wasnt anger and that i did really well, but i had screamed and she said the urge is sooo strong you had to do something to conteract the force as we needed you to not push and she was upset that i was so sad, but i think as i feel this may be my last birthing experience and that its not as perfect as i felt my previous was, ive somehow dissapointed myself.
anyhow, they sent me home the next day!
it took a day but we've named her Taylor Rose Brown and she's perfect!
today 3 days post delivery but just under 3 days old she weighs 6lbs 10.5ozs so not lost quite her 10% she has fed almost non stop and so my milk is in and im weeepy, very sore and have very full boobs but it does mean she sleeps for a while now she's a bit fuller, ive washed her hair as it was full of birthing gunk and she's so cute and ***** her thumb tucking her little finger over her nose!!

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by hopeitworks, Feb 25, 2011
Awww love the new pic. So great you got to go home the next day!!! Dont be so hard on yourself  you reacted to the situation and did what you had too. And she is perfect!!!!

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by loved29, Feb 25, 2011
you did well natasha. i glad you got ur little girl. she is beautiful,.

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by SunWorshiper_26, Feb 25, 2011
I know how important it is to have a good birthing experience and we all have it set in our minds to go a certain way. But this too shall pass and in the end the most important part has happened, Taylor was born she is safe and healthy and so are you. Just take things one day at a time and remember that you did a great job!  Taylor is beautiful and she sounds so adorable sucking her thumb!!  Congratulations on your beautiful baby girl!

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by S2609, Feb 25, 2011
Awww sorry to hear you were a bit disappointed with your birthing experience... but you have such a cute and lovely girl now!! She is adorable! And she ***** her thumb the same way as our little one was doing in our 3D scan :D - how cute! Hope you feel better soon hun and enjoy every moment with your little girl! xx

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by anxiouslywaiting910, Feb 25, 2011
I know how you feel... I felt robbed as I ended up having an emergency c-section. :(

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by leanne95, Feb 26, 2011
i can sympathise to, i felt a little gutted it was all over, i still do some days, :o(
were desperate for them to get  here, then all the hormones kick in after and you feel a little deflated that is ended,
plus it dont help that you didnt have the birth experience you thought you would have, it dont help.
make sure you let your h/v know as around day 3/4 is when the baby blues set in, so there keep an eye on you to see how your feeling. shes so lovely and still so new, so enjoy her as like you know it goes so so fast x x x take care x x x

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by natashajay, Mar 02, 2011
ahh thsnk you everyone, im still very sad when anyone asks how the birth went, but Taylor is adorable, she feeds all the time and has the hiccups at least 4+ times everyday..just like in the womb LOL and she doesnt fit any of her newborn clothes, they hang on her!
we've taken to letting her sleep in our bed otherwise i get no sleep at all, its only going to be for a few weeks though as i wont allow it to go on, like with my other daughter...2 years! nope a few weeks then we have to be stronger but whilst im recovering its just easier.
i had a midwife appointment today, im still bleeding and clotting a bit so they'll keep an eye on that, it could be as we went to town for a few hours yesturday to buy me some nursing a shocking 40E! i nearly passed out when she said, we had to goto a bigger mothercare store acrosss town as the smallerone didnt have any of that size in stock! but im so comfortable now, and DH who has been amazing since Taylor arrived bought me some BF tops too!
he is wonderful we grabbed a 5 minute hug before Taylor awoke the other night, he gets up in the night and takes Taylor if ive fed her but can't settle her, and he loves cuddling her too! its been an amazing journey and i'd do it all again.

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by SunWorshiper_26, Mar 02, 2011
Awe your hubby is so sweet!  I'm glad that you are doing better. Ellie gets the hiccups all the time too it's cute!  I hope you continue to recover well and are feeling strong soon.

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by loved29, Mar 03, 2011
you sounds so happy again. I'm glad you and dave are getting on better too. Life is good. :)

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