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Amit defeat

Apr 04, 2011 - 0 comments

So i know in my current position of not knowing if something has invaded my belly I shouldn't do but last night I had a few drinks and got rather tipsy (Please do not judge me on this). Well anyway my now ex rang me as I was finished drinking and shouted shouting and getting abusive with me because I had been drinkking (he doesn't know about the possible situation of a baby)
QUICK UPDATE: I am now 4 weeks late on an actual period but have been bleeding slightly and very lightly but it is very different to how my period is.
So he was shouting abuse at me and as it is his birthday tomorrow was threatening that if I did not travel 100 miles today and make an effort with all of his friend (who i hate as they treat him and myself like twats. only bothering with my ex when he was around with his car, for lifts) that he would come and drag me there by my hair (yes- what a very nice guy i went for) Well I ended up saying I didn't want him to come back, that I can't be doing with the strain or pressure he is putting onto me and that I hate him. This obviously didn't go down very well. That conversation was soon over with him threatening, crying and blaming everything on me.

Then I was on facebook and sent a bit of a drunken email to a good friend (the only one who has helped me out porperly though all of this) explain that I don't think she thinks less of me, that I do and that I was bisexual (the first time I have even admitted it to myself) And also that I thought her brother was really good looking and if I'm not with baby I think she should get him over to hers for us to meet. She didn't have a problem with me being bi, her sister has just come out as a lesbian and her best friend is a lesbian too. She likes the idea of my and her bother being together and has said either outcome (pregnant or not) she would like us to get to know each other and see what happens.... now here is where it gets complicated I think I like her. It's that feeling where I get excited everytime she texts, she asks me if I want to go over and I jump at the chance, shes always there for me and has helped me through a lot, she is very attractive (or at least I think so) but I know she isn't into other females. I guess I want her brother to be like her.. he is very good looking, he has the best cheek bones and eyes I've seen, a very cheeky smile and I do blush if I see a photo of him. I havn't met him in person yet but we have simular interests according to the sister. What do I do?

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